• Live Life to the Max

    Posted in Friend

    Dear Max, although we never met, I feel like you've been a friend for a very long time. For years you visited my home daily as I watched the 6:00 news. Over the years, I laughed and cried with you and worried when you announced you'd been diagnosed with cancer. Your courage in sharing your journey inspired myself and many others. Thank you for being such a wonderful cheerleader for Ottawa and the surrounding area. Thanks also for all your charitable works and for your support of our Sens. Ottawa has lost a wonderful man. I understand you used to say, "You'd have lots of time to rest when you died." Rest in peace now Max, you certainly lived your life to the max - thank you for being such a special person and my friend.

  • Your Voice

    Posted in Mother

    I was starting to feel so very frustrated by how far away you felt and then I heard your voice in my dream the other day and it made my whole body feel right again. Thank you. I love you so much Mom.

  • Your laugher is in my head

    Posted in Friend

    having a prolonged wave of grief and disbelief that a good friend is gone too soon, too young. Paul we are heartbroken you have left us, selfishly for us and for Val and your kids. I can't get past the shock at this moment, disbelief. I know it's part of "life" but your sudden, un expected and un fathomable passing has rocked me.

  • Another Year

    Posted in Sister

    When you passed eight years ago, it was a cold, sunny, wintry day after a big snowstorm. We were going to take you to a palliative care facility. You were ready to move on after so much physical suffering. So we just came to the hospital to say our good byes. So often we think of you and wish your grand children had had the opportunity to know you. We try to keep your memory alive with pictures and stories. Be at peace, dear sister.

  • Birthdays, old and new

    Posted in Father

    Happy Birthday! It's hard to believe that you would be 75 today. I think of you and miss you every day, but a little bit extra on your birthday. We just found out that our good friends had a baby girl a few hours ago. It made me smile thinking that this wonderful, new life would share a birthday with you. Maybe you sent her into this world with an extra bit of love.

  • Lost

    Posted in Father

    I needed you then and I need you now. I don't know what else I could have done to keep you here. I have no idea why you chose to leave, but I'm sorry for not doing enough to make you stay.

  • A VERY SAD WEEK

    Posted in Friend

    May 10th was the 19th anniversary of my sister's death. May 13th an old friend died and May 16th was the 14th anniversary of my husband's death. I've spent so much time this week thinking about these wonderful people that I've loved and miss very much. I've been so blessed to have had them in my life. They'll always have a place in my heart. I feel all of them giving me hugs and telling me that they're definitely in a better place and aren't suffering anymore. I know they're watching over all of us but I really do miss them. Till we meet again..... Love to all of you, Judy XOXOXO

  • Birthday Memories

    Posted in Sister

    I have been thinking of you all day, especially since I am gathering some childhood photos of you to put in an album for your children. I came across two of your fifth birthday photos. I think Mom probably sewed the new dress you are wearing. The group picture shows all your friends smiling and happy to be your birthday guests. I wish you were here today so we could all celebrate your birthday here. I know you are with us in spirit. I just with I could give you a hug.

  • A year ago...

    Posted in Father

    It's hard to believe that you were with us a year ago. You were always so proud to wear red on Fridays and Canada Day was another day when your red shirt set off your happy smile. I miss your determination and courage, Dad. Your irrepressible positive attitude despite your ailing health, falls, diabetes and congestive heart failure with its frightening smothering feeling...your unconditional support for everything we undertook...your joy at seeing the progress of our new house in Almonte...your genuine happiness to see me at your door or hear my voice on the other end of the phone line...your quick wit and funny stories...All of that and more, Dad. I feel your spirit every day and remember all our shared laughs and good times with such fondness. We hold you dear and will think of you especially on July 6, 2014 - the day you laughed and shared jokes with Aunt Rose and Father Mike, sat up to go to dinner and made your hasty exit to the next life. It's a comfort to know you're free of pain and needles and in a realm where each breath is like the wind effortlessly blowing through the pine trees here at our beloved cottage you built. We love it here, Dad, on the Ottawa River and feel you are close by. Your smiling face and laughter are with us always. Know you are loved and remembered.

  • Mother's Day

    Posted in Mother

    On Mother's Day we are especially grateful for Moms. Those here in body, and those here now only in spirit. We send thoughts of peace and healing to anyone who has lost a Mother, Grandmother or Mother figure. And we wish a day full of happy memories to those Moms who have lost a child. XO

  • A smile for Baba

    Posted in Mother

    Everytime I look at my newborn son sleeping and see him smile I like to imagine that you are visiting him in his dreams and he is smiling at you, his beloved Baba. I know if you were here you would make each other smile. I so wish you could meet him, we miss you Mom. xo

  • Hi Mom, It is 6 years since you left us and I miss you and your loving interest in all that I do - important or trivial. I have to believe that we will meet again in Heaven..along with everyone else gone before me that I cherish. You watch over me and all our family and I thank you for being my Mom. All my love.

  • Special Family

    Posted in Grandparents

    Hi everyone, 2001 was a very hard year for me when i lost all 3 grandparents in the same year within months. I Miss them all very much. Not a day goes by that i don't think of them. I remember one year when i went to visit my nonno in italy and i was trying to teach him english. He tried so much and i am so proud. My nonna was a sweet heart in italy and i only remeber a few things about her. my nonno rooco died 2001 and it was very sad. i remember when i was small he would pick me up from school at st anthony. also buy me treat the store. He was very sweet to me. i cherish all the memories i have . then my nonna . what to say about her. She was a beautiful talented lady. she had a big heart and would always plan to have the family together, I remember all the family christmas party. they would be great. seeing all the family. My nonna was very good to me and i am greatful for that. she was a fighter when she got sick and she is my angel now . I miss you nonna so much . I miss all my grandparents . Tiamo tanto

  • Mother In Law

    Posted in Mother

    While you had a full life, you left us too soon and only 5 weeks after losing your husband and my father in law. I have to hang on to the belief that you wanted to be with him but it is such a void in our family's life. I wish you peace as we prepare to say goodbye today at your funeral. Our home is filled with your treasures and memories of you. xo

  • 50 dollars, really?

    Posted in Grandfather

    summer was with grandma at the gas station and grandma asked her "do you need any money?" and summer continued to say no. grandma said" well grandpa would want you to have it." when they got to her house, summer found a 50 dollar bill in her backseat. she asked grandma if she had it in her jacket, she said no. grandma then said, "that's grandpa for you." you were the most generous man i had ever met. but what am i saying "were" for? you still are.

  • a special memory

    Posted in Father

    To my father who has been gone for almost 5 years. I am proud to let him know his daughter had a beautiful baby boy named Steven. My dad would have been a great grandfather to my son Steven. Wish he was here to share things and teach him things. My dad raised me well and taught me good things and now I want to share that with my son. Great advice too. I have come along way with my life and now created a beautiful son. When he gets a bit older I will show pictures and share stories with him. Talk about his grandfather. I miss my dad very much and wish he can be here. I think of him always Dad, thank you for all the advice and teaching me things. I cherish that and will share that with my son. With love always Dad...

  • My Forever Love

    Posted in Husband

    Today marks 7 weeks since I heard your last heartbeat. I am still trying to understand why God only gave us 6 years together. I feel so cheated. I feel angry, sad but most of all I miss you so bad it hurts all the time. I look back at the times we shared and I am so thankful for the memories, so many happy memories. I wonder if the pain will ever lessen, if there will ever be another full night sleep. I see you in everything I do. I want to be where we were, share the things we shared. I love you so much. You promised forever. You gave me your forever. Please watch over S and I . Let us feel you near us until we meet again. P.S. I Love You Forever my sweet husband...

  • Miss you

    Posted in Parents

    Mom&Dad I miss you so much words can never explain.till one day when we meet up in the Heavenly gardens. Love your Son

  • Short Break

    Posted in Friend

    We're taking a short break from posting new notes. Please read existing notes under 'Read a Note (archives)'. You can also write your own note(s) under 'Write a Note'. Thanks!

  • Dear Margie

    Posted in Friend

    Margie - it's time for a chat. Let's go for a walk and then have tea, or even better, a cappuccino. I want to bask in your bright spirit and hear your infectious laugh and find out how the girls are doing and what you're working on in your studio. And of course we'll hop around many topics as we always do and end with a warm hug. I still miss you.

  • Remembering That You're Gone

    Posted in Father

    I love when you're in my dreams. It happens less and less these days, but it's always so wonderful. However, that moment shortly after I wake up, and remember that you're gone, is so painful. For a few seconds it's like you're still alive, and then the reality of your death hits like a ton of bricks.

  • Epitomy of a Grandmother

    Posted in Grandmother

    Sometimes I feel as though you weren't even real. I was so young when you died and my memories of you seem very hazy. Regardless, I know without a doubt that you loved me deeply. I think you epitomized what it is to be a grandmother. I'm sure my Mom, your daughter, will be much the same with her granddaughters.

  • My lovely Mam

    Posted in Mother

    Oh Mam! How I miss you and nothing will ever be the same again. We all love you x x

  • Guidance

    Posted in Father

    After you died, someone told me that the best way to honour your life was to really live my own life. I thought about how you lived your life. You made sure to cultivate relationships with people that you loved, you appreciated beauty, you sought out challenges, you stood up for what you believed in, and you took time for stillness and remembering. I think of this so often and find it to be such a guiding force in living my life. Even though you aren't here, you provide so much guidance. I love you.

  • My Angel Blessing

    Posted in Daughter

    My last birthday I turned 35, I was happy and sad because two days later you would of turned 5. Not a day goes by that I don't wonder what a beautiful and mature young girl you would have grown up to be. The pain is still unbearable, though you were taken from this earth on December 17,2008, some days it feels like just yesterday I held you. Mommy loves and misses you very much and know you're looking down. So I keep your memory alive with a smile instead of a frown. Rest in Peace Baby Blessing. I love you always

  • You Are Always With Us

    Posted in Grandson

    My Sweet Tyson-- Ty -- as we call you. You are always sending signs that you are with us and every time I am with Kenedi Blaire and Hudson, I imagine you there between them. I hear your song "I Will Rise" and I know you are with us. I never got to hold you, but one day I will. For now I know that Mama is holding you and Benny. Love you Ty and see you soon.

  • Aching For You

    Posted in Husband

    M, it's been two long years since you left me. I'm surviving this, but it's so hard. K misses you SO much! It's been really hard on her. She adored you! (still does...) I can't imagine ever finding love again, you were such a unique person who made my life so wonderful. Thanks for putting up with me and for giving me K. Sometimes when I'm missing you so terribly, I hold onto her and just relish the fact that she is part of you. ALWAYS and FOREVER, Your Wife

  • I miss you

    Posted in Friend

    I will just say to you right now how much I still think about you every single day. This wound feels like it will never heal. I sometimes feel that this pain is more than I can bear. My heart aches like never before. I just want to see you, to hug you, to laugh with you. I miss you more than 150 words will ever be able to say. I could write on and on and on. Please know that I am also happy for you, you suffered on this earth, you were sick and you kept on fighting and kept on laughing and smiling, now you are not in pain and I am happy about that. You are pain free and you are truly free to be the angel you were and always will be. One day I will see you again.

  • Love of my life

    Posted in Husband

    It is five and a half weeks since you were taken from me. It seems like a lifetime. The last time I heard you say "I love you, forever". With every breath I take I miss you. You, my day, my night, the air that I breathe, without you I am a lost soul. Our hearts are one so that might explain how difficult it is to function without you here by my side. I will watch for your signs and please remember to wait for me…get that door ready for when I call. Just you and I, always and forever just you and I. Hope to see you soon. Forever and a day xxxxx

  • How do I do this?

    Posted in Daughter

    I don't know how to do this. You were here and then gone so fast. I wanted a lifetime not just 27 years. I have good days and bad days. I look at pictures and it is so strange because I should still have you too my daughter..not just pictures. I miss you so much. There are memories of you everywhere I go. Sometimes they make me smile, other times I just break down. I cry for what you won't get to do but smile at what you have done. I wish we had more time...more hugs, more laughter...the only peace I have is knowing you are not in pain any more. So until we meet again my child...please know a piece of my heart is with you in Heaven now. I love you Krystle. You were my shining little star..my side kick, my comedian....I love you so much..and miss you that much more...love..Mommy...xo

  • Hard to believe that for the last week every day while walking my dog I have seen oak leaves on our very snowy country road. Not just a couple but many each day. It is my brother Dan saying hello and letting us know he is watching over us. I have this unique way of connecting with family and friends who have passed away. I associate them with an object or objects and every time I see that object I think of them and have a little chat. Works for me. We miss you every day Dan and thanks for sending the oak leaves.

  • Dad's Handwriting

    Posted in Father

    We were up at your sister's place this weekend. Right before we left to come home, I noticed their guest book lying on the table by the front door. I flipped it open and noticed an entry you had made 13 years ago! It made me smile to see your handwriting again. Made me remember many happy times spent there together.

  • I Miss You

    Posted in Mother

    I miss you so incredibly much. I found out after your passing that there were many things you kept from me, and you promised you would never do that, yet you did anyways, and told the things to people that didn't deserve to know. I wish you would have told me it all, and I wish you would have told me what was happening to you. But you didn't, and now I'm left wondering and I will never have the answers. I can't visit your grave because I know you aren't there. I feel alone most of the time even though I'm not. You were everything to me, and now you're gone. I miss your voice and your hugs, and it kills me knowing I will never have them again. You deserved so much more than what you got in the end, and it will always make me angry that you didn't have the family you deserved or the life you deserved. I am glad to know that at least I was there for you and you knew that I loved you. I miss you so much, Mom.

  • For Pip

    Posted in Friend

    Miss you Pip, nobody got it, you did.

  • A Poinsettia for Mom

    Posted in Mother

    We arranged a memorial poinsettia for you at church on Christmas Eve this year. It makes me happy to know that a piece of you will somehow be part of that service. I know you will be the driving force behind my Christmas traditions for the rest of my life - it is a holiday you taught us all to love, for the right reasons. I love you Mom.

  • Presents for Dad

    Posted in Father

    It feels strange not to be buying Christmas gifts for you. As I'm wrapping my presents for the rest of the family, and filling out the tags, I keep wanting to write To: Dad. Know that on Christmas morning, even though there are no presents addressed to you, I will be thinking of you and wishing you were there with us.

  • I was putting up the christmas tree this year and when I was doing that I saw an image of my dad and family. It was the time when I was small and we were are together decorating the tree. I miss having him around to do that... its been 4 christmas now since he is not around but i know he is here in spirit. I miss you very much dad and thnk of you everyday . loves always your daughter xo

  • only you

    Posted in Grandfather

    my mom told me that I was the only one you ever changed. not even your 3 kids! out of all of your granddaughters, I was the only one. when I was a lot younger, after school, you would either take me to McDonalds or dunkin donuts. when we went to McDonalds, you always told me to eat before going on the jungle-jim. but, being me, I never did. I ate one bite the rushed over. but now, when we have dunkin donuts, I think of you. only you.

  • The pain does not stop

    Posted in Husband

    One day you were here and the next day you were gone. I always cherished every day with you and thought that we would grow old together. I never imagined being on my own at 47 years old. Now I probably have to live another 40 years without you.

  • Christmas Day 2012 Was the beginning of the end. Your voice just a slur on the phone. You were admitted to hospital on Boxing Day and never came home. Yesterday, T cried because she didn't have a Grandparent to come and watch her Christmas play. I know B will cry this weekend when you're not there to sing Happy Birthday. There's a fear that arrives in December now. it's when you died, your mum died, Dad died. Last December, my marriage died too.Will it be the month I die? I miss you so much. I love you x

  • Candle Salad

    Posted in Grandmother

    MeMommie - this is our first time to celebrate this special holiday without you here - 99 3/4 years was a long time, but we would have loved one more turn at this season with you. Just recalling the "candle salad" we made one year for Christmas dinner. We didn't realize the bananas were supposed to be cut square at the top, so our candles ended up looking a little like an unmentionable body part, not really fitting for a Christmas dinner. But, in your usual fashion, you giggled right along with us and we have the memory to hold on to, even though you're no longer here. I saw an ornament today and it said, "Because someone we love is celebrating Christmas in Heaven, we have a little bit of Heaven in our Christmas this year." I miss you - and I love you - and I'm so grateful to know you're with all the family and celebrating Christmas, for the first time ever, with the one who caused it to be in the first place!

  • Dad, I've missed you every day since 1992. I miss you extra around Christmas because we both had vacations from school and work. I miss going to Harlan with you and having a boring miserable time getting stuck in the mountains because of snow. I suppose a positive is that I won't be forcing you to wake up at 4 am on Xmas morning to open presents, giving you a terrible headache. Sorry about the headaches dad, but I know you secretly loved it.

  • memories from you

    Posted in Grandfather

    I remember when I was at your house and I could smell your coffee. you would come down the hallway with your cup and would always seem so happy. you would then say in the sweetest voice, "hey, babe." I replay this in my mind hoping I could one day, hear this again.

  • Missing you

    Posted in Daughter

    I miss talking to you, hearing your voice, seeing your smile, listening to you talk about what happens during your day. I miss everything about you, I am still having a hard time excepting that you are gone. Everything reminds me of you, you are always in my heart and mind, I love you baby girl.

  • us <3

    Posted in Aunt

    I was a kid, I didn't know what love meant, until that day when you were in the hospital and mumma told me that there is no hope for you to get better! I cried like hell, I felt the pain in me for the first time, I didnt want you to leave.... now it has been three years, but it feels like its all about yesterday. Many nights I cry and cry. I can't forget how you massaged my hair, helped me in studies, were awake with me during exams. I just can't do all this without you. Maybe I don't wanna do it without you. There is so much fake love around, but I just believe in this feeling that I love you and will always do, and distances doesn't make us apart!

  • Happy Birthday

    Posted in Father

    Happy Birthday dear dad in- law. We miss you greatly and wish you were here so we could have an Mgd together. All my love.

  • Dancing Lights

    Posted in Husband

    Today Matt hung the Christmas shape lights. The temperature was mild, so it was a good day to put them up. They look very nice, as usual, and so different. Of course, Sarah and I always think of you when we look at them, so they are a special part of our Christmas season. I'll bet the girls will enjoy them when they are a little older. No one else will have them, and we can tell them how their Grandpa always carefully hung them, and now their Daddy is taking on the tradition.

  • Christmas Gift

    Posted in Father

    It's that time of year, when I would normally be thinking about what to buy you for Christmas. There is no "normally" now. Although you were hard to shop for, I enjoyed the challenge! You had your favourites - dark chocolate, Dubonnet, books - but I always liked to try and find something you wouldn't expect. Despite the fact that I am not buying you presents anymore, I hope you know that I've thought about you (a lot) every Christmas since you passed away, and will for the rest of my life. xoxo

  • The super glue

    Posted in Mother

    You were our super glue, we loved because you loved... Our relationships are different now... When you left, everything that was a part of you left too... They forgot... I will never forget... I miss you so much... I reach for my phone every day to call and say help me... I miss you momma... They don't love the way you taught them to... After everything... I can't say I do either. You were my anchor in the stormy seas... and now I'm just floating a drift.....

  • I'll miss you dear friend

    Posted in Friend

    I heard you passed away this morning. It's only a week since I last saw you. You were in such pain and so determined to carry on. That's who you were. I'll miss our friendship, our shopping trips and get togethers on Sunday mornings. I've shed many tears since I heard, but they're selfish tears because I know you're in a much better place. Your terrible struggles and suffering have finally stopped. God said "Eileen, it's time for you to come home. Never mind being stubborn, it's time now!" I know He welcomed you with open arms and told you not to worry about Gerry, he''s going to miss you terribly, but he'll manage. Be at peace dear friend and thank you for your friendship and for being such an inspiration for me all these years.

  • The last Valentines Day you were able to shop by yourself, you bought a card for Mom. It read, "Love Travels at the Speed Of Thought” — bitterly ironic, as the next week you were diagnosed with dementia. Every time I think of you now, I think of that phrase. I know you are always around and my thoughts are always of love. They travel, swiftly, across the universe, connecting us again. I miss you when your thoughts of love reach me through your favourite music, a joke you might have told or when I am sitting quietly alone and you appear in my mind. How quickly we become reunited for a moment, for a second, in thought.

  • Miss You Oh So Much

    Posted in Son

    Dear Buddy& Bo, I miss you both so very much. I know you both are in a beautiful and pain free place. I know someday I will join you. Your g babies miss you so much and Bo, your children miss you so much, I don't know if they will ever get over losing their Daddy. Till we meet again, I love and miss you oh so much.

  • I wish I could miss you

    Posted in Father

    You were not a loving father. You were selfish and a bully. You drove us all away with harsh words and sneers. However, you were still my father. When you were dying I was the only family member to visit every day and because I worked in the health field I was able to make sure you were taken care of properly. I was called far away and I knew I wouldn't see you again. I heard the news of your death in a cafe in a little French town. We'd run out of money and been given free coffee by a kindly waiter - you'd have liked that! Why did I cry? I haven't since. I'd done my best for you. I don't miss you. I wish I could. I wish you'd been the kind of dad whose death leaves a gap in their children's lives. I wish you'd been kind and supportive, and proud of us, most of all because you'd have been happier too, and I loved you.

  • Five Years

    Posted in Husband

    Oak leaves always remind me of you. Lots of brown ones have been swirling around this fall. When I went to art class last week, there was one dancing in the lane way. I was happy to hear from you. I know you always encouraged me with my art. Later, when I returned, there was another dancing leaf in the lane. I secured the storm door to stay open while I brought in my art supplies. When I came into the house, there was the leaf on the carpet. What a gift that was to see the leaf actually in the house. Thanks for your encouragement and for showing up. We miss you and wish you could be here to help us enjoy the twins. You would have been such a good grandfather.

  • You Are...

    Posted in Aunt

    We see you now. We see you in places we had not before. You are the shining sun. You are the earth beneath us. You are the rivers and the lakes and the rain that pours down on us. Now, you are the wind on my face and the leaves on these trees that cradle our broken, open hearts.

  • Another Year

    Posted in Father

    Tomorrow marks the anniversary of your death. I can't believe another year has gone by since you passed away. I wish I knew where you were. What you were doing. Who you were with. More than anything, I just wish that I knew that you were OK. I sometimes sit in the quiet darkness and try to feel your presence. I can't honestly say that I've been able to. I know you're with me, because your DNA makes up my DNA, and you raised me and shaped my spirit. Still, it would be so nice to really and truly feel you with me. Wherever you are, I hope you are at peace and I hope you know how much you are loved and missed.

  • It's years now but I'm still not used to your not being here. I see you every day, walking down the street, kissing a pretty girl, working out at the gym. I look hard in case it's really you but it never is. There was only one You. People go on with their lives but you are left behind. I am too.

  • Lady Bugs

    Posted in Mother

    Hi Mom, I saw that red lady bug again this morning. I feel like it is you visiting me.. Thank you for making my morning. I say a prayer each night and ask God to watch over you in Heaven. We all miss and love you very much.

  • ~ I have to believe ~

    Posted in Father

    The kids and I have started praying every night before bed ... I have to believe you aren't just gone, that your spirit still lives on somewhere. You were taken from us too soon, all I have left is the hope your still out there somewhere and we will be able to meet again. That your Grandchildren will have the chance to know you better. I pray that there's more for us than just this life and there is an after life. I have to believe you are watching down on us keeping us safe. I hope you heard our prayers tonight. Missing you always and forever.

  • A Friend I Never Met

    Posted in Friend

    I never actually met you, but I watched you on television and followed your story. You so honestly and bravely chronicled your journey with cancer. I'm sure that everyone who knew your story was rooting for you, and hoping that this third bout of cancer would end with good health and a bright future ahead. Though your life ended far too soon, you left behind a beautiful legacy that will live forever.

  • Never forgotten

    Posted in Father

    It's hard to believe that five years have gone by already and not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I still continue to share stories of her beloved poppa to your grand-daughter, who is so big, so mature and so grown up, you would be so proud. We are all so happy and wish we could share our happiness with you. I love you.

  • Really Missing You

    Posted in Aunt

    I just really miss you. I wish you were here and could share in all of the wonderful things that have happened since your death.

  • to my dear dog

    Posted in Pet

    Making the decision to let you go felt impossible. How could we let you leave us? I hope you didn't feel like we gave up on you; it truly was done out of love. Thank you for the happiness you brought into our home. We miss you every day, our dear dog.

  • Bye best Friend

    Posted in Pet

    Woofer, There are no words to say just how much I love you. You brought joy to me, a little boy of 9 years, thirteen years ago. You brought me joy, you brought me sorrow, but best of all you were the best friend I ever had. My life will never again be complete. Goodnight my handsome boy, will miss you always. Love from Daddy, your best friend.

  • Cleo

    Posted in Pet

    You know Cleo, ever since you passed, I haven't wanted to go on many walks anymore. Always watching you and Yukon play and running all around gave me so much joy and energy...whenever I go now, I feel this energy is missing. And Yukon, he searched for you everyday, for a long time. If doggy love is real, I witnessed it-- he just hasn't been the same without you. I hope your tummy is feeling much better... sending you endless cuddles (and many smooches from Yuke), We all love you, missy...come walk with us soon

  • Miss you so much

    Posted in Pet

    Although I have 2 new babies that I'm sure that I was led to by you, I still miss you so much! You were with me for almost 14 years & have been gone for almost 2, but that terrible day that you left seems like yesterday. I love you, Miss Poo!

  • Mom I just realized I'm going to wake up on my birthday and not hear you singing on the phone....I'm so sad trying to be positive for dad I worry he wants to be with you more than here on earth with his grand kids. Life's so short it seemed like a blink of an eye and it's gone.... I miss talking to you seeing you cute smile and most of all your eyes twinkleing. It hurts so much and I can't say much the kids see me cry and it upsets them so.i love you mom missing you so much. I know the ache is still there I miss you!!!

  • Bunky

    Posted in Daughter

    My Bunky I miss you so much. I know you are way better now-i know with God and Angels and everything good-i will be good too so I will see you again one day!!! I love you so much my Baby Bunky. I love you Gnight! Love, momma

  • MY ONLY LOVE FOREVER!!

    Posted in Husband

    It's will be a year 3/16/2014 since you left and my heart aches so bad. I still cry alot for you.You gave me 40 wonderful years and i would do it all over again just with you. I have no regrets letting you pass away at home and I took care of you for that year. I would do it again. It's hard living without you. I'm dealing, but waiting to be with you again forever. I'm going to keep my promise to you there will never be no other and I'll never forget you. I carry you in my heart always. I'll LOVE you and Miss you always forever my only love..

  • Happy Birthday

    Posted in Son

    For a special little boy who would have been 16 years old today. Some may have forgotten you but Mummy never will. Lots of hugs and kisses xxxx

  • Sad sighs

    Posted in Mother

    Mom you know I wonder why life is so short. 53 was just way to quick....we are left reminded that you're not physically here. Dad had us clean up the clothes you can still smell you on them. It crushes me. I sobbed last night. Guilt of not coming sooner letting money rule my decisions because bills are high. Guess what they are still high and I don't have you anymore! Life doesn't seem to have as much sparkle. I miss you

  • Nanny... you have been gone from this earth since I was twelve, from my heart, never. You live in my spirit, in my courage, in the imagination you stoked so beautifully and in every song I write; for it was you who showed me I could figure out how to play by ear, not just by the book. You rarely played by the book and we were all better for it. I have love in my life and good people in my life, but all these years later, you remain one of the most incredible people I have ever met. I do wish we could have had more time together, but I'm so grateful for what we did have, for it was an uncommon gift. 36 years later, your amazing spirit and the love you poured into me continues to echo through my life and heart, every single day. Thank you for loving me so. I love you, xoxo

  • Still missing you!

    Posted in Mother

    Mama, it's been almost a month and never did I think that I would be here without you so soon in my life! I miss you so so much, its a challenge for me to just get up every morning. Branson helps me deal because I know you would not forgive me if I didn't take care of your baby boy. He misses you so much and it breaks my heart to see him hurt! I have tried to understand why you were taken from me especially this time in my life when I need you so much. I just don't know what to do with myself! I love you Mama so so much!

  • Missing You...

    Posted in Husband

    It hasn't even been 3 months since you've been gone, but somehow it feels like forever. I miss so many things....it's unbelievable all the little things that I counted on for you to take care of. It's so hard taking care of everything myself now...especially since my brain doesn't seem to be working so well. I know you are watching over us...please continue. We all love the signs you send! Goodnight my love. I will always, always love and miss you!

  • Suicide hurts.......

    Posted in Son

    Dear son...... My life changed forever the day you chose to go home. There is not a minute in a day I'm free of the pain. So many questions left unanswered........ Why ? I loved you so very much. I miss your calls, hugs, smell , protectiveness... Hell i miss every single thing about you. I feel so alone. I feel like I'm in a bad dream..... You were such an amazing son i told you that but now i can't any longer..... :-( my heart's broke into a million and one pieces. You forgot to tell me how to live without you. Fly high my angel. I know you're pain free now . I only wish i would have known i feel i failed you as a mom terribly. I'll love you for always my baby you'll always be.... Forever 22 Austi xoxo

  • You Taught Me To Live

    Posted in Father

    Daddy, it's been 7-weeks that you lost your fight with cancer. I live only because you taught me to live after you were gone! Some days are harder than others, but I don't want to waste precious time living before I can see You again!!! Heaven must be very beautiful, enjoy your pain free body and don't worry about all of us. You taught us well, we will see you soon enough...Much love, your baby girl....

  • Birth Day

    Posted in Father

    Since you have been gone, I've often dismissed the idea that you are somewhere up there watching over me. When our birth plan began to a seem like an impossible dream, I turned to you for strength. You must have heard me. She arrived a few days late - so that she could share your birthday and so that I would know that you aren't that far away after all - just like I'd asked. She is really beautiful and I wish you could be here with us so she could get to know her Grandpa. Love you and miss you.

  • Late Night Rides

    Posted in Father

    I'm going out with some friends tonight and was just thinking how, if you were here, I would be calling you late at night for a ride home. I can't do that anymore. You were always willing to pick me up - anywhere, any time. I can't tell you how comforting it was to know that you were always there if I needed you.

  • Life Goes On

    Posted in Husband

    Your nephew got married at the resort we once visited with his parents and their friends. Of course, many people recollected good memories of you and wished you were there with us. We could feel your spirit, but it was not the same as having you physically present. Somehow the memories sustain us and cause you to live on in our hearts. You made a very significant contribution to so many lives. It gives me comfort that so many like to reference you and share their feelings about you.

  • Gift

    Posted in Mother

    Mom - Thanks for the gift of allowing me to look after you when you were dying. I have become a better person for it and I now share that gift by looking after others who are dying. Love you!

  • Memories of You

    Posted in Sister

    I couldn't help thinking of you when your granddaughter was visiting me yesterday. There she was copying down a list of the muffin ingredients as I dictated them to her. When we had gotten the items ready, she checked each one off. So like you. No prompting from me, all her own way of organizing and accomplishing the task. I get such pleasure out of your grandchildren. I like to tell them about you so they can have some sense of connection to you.

  • Thoughts of You

    Posted in Brother

    Your nephew is getting married to a wonderful woman you would love. We are going to a place where we previously spent holiday time with you and a group of family & friends. You will be remembered and missed. Soon you will be a Grandfather. Your joy and happiness would have been unending. You are always remembered and missed. Please watch over us all and make certain your parents and my parents are with you at the wedding to send us all the warmth of your love. Thoughts of you are everywhere. All my love, your sister-in-law.

  • My Angel

    Posted in Grandmother

    To my beautiful grandmother. This Saturday will be 2 years since you died. We miss you very much . I miss your cooking and baking. Your voice. Your smile . I miss coming to visit at your house and special events ... We think of you always not a day goes by ... I will cherish all the memories forever. Tiamo nonna

  • I love you

    Posted in Husband

    It's 15 weeks today. I love you and I miss you like crazy. 23 years was not enough time. The only thing that keeps me going is the hope that you are not in pain and that you perhaps found peace and comfort.

  • ... I wasn't lying. I did. I still do. Brain tumors are ugly things. Despite the pain I feel now and all the pain I felt then, I'd never make you go through that again. I look for you everywhere and I always will... All my love, Dad. Always, always, always.

  • Still trying to cope

    Posted in Brother

    It has been a long 10 months since I got the call from Mom that she found you on the bathroom floor and the paramedics had just pronounced you dead. That simple phrase "Al is dead!!" is the first thing I hear when I wake up and the last thing I hear when I fall asleep. I remember telling the officer that it wasn't a shock to get this call. I knew you were getting worse, but felt invincible. I am still so very angry with you. You robbed me of our close relationship. I know one day I will forgive you, but right now - I am just so angry. I wish you knew how much I loved you and how much I miss you everyday. There has not been one second, of every minute of every day since January 11th that I haven't thought of you. Rest in peace bubbie. I love you.

  • Missing You

    Posted in Father

    I miss you. Every single day.

  • Happy Memories

    Posted in Uncle

    I watched the slideshow from your wake last night. I thought it would make me feel sad. Instead, I found myself smiling as I remembered all of the happy memories. It was so evident in all of those pictures how much you loved your family. We all miss you and your sense of humour. Things just aren't quite the same without you.

  • Memories

    Posted in Mother

    Today is another anniversary of your death, 21 years. Time heals, but it also brings back memories unexpectedly. An old knitting pattern, a special recipe, a blanket crocheted for your granddaughter. The reminders of how you loved us and cared for us are all around and tug at our hearts. Those memories are all we have, but they make you live on in our lives as we are grateful for what you meant to us. You would be pleased to see how your grandchildren are living their lives and how they care for each other. They had a good role model.

  • Im ready

    Posted in Husband

    Im ready to see you again. I'm ready to leave here, I just want to be where you are. It's been two years and life still doesn't make sense, I have no joy, no interest in anything other than our little grandchild who needs me so much. I'm trying to patiently watch him grow ,I love him so much I just wish we cold have watched him grow together. I can't be the example for him that you would have been but I'm doing the best I can to help him become as good a man as his Poppy was. I just don't understand anything anymore but I know I will see you again one day I know you are in a beautiful place where there is no sorrow or pain and I know you would want me to be happy and live a life without you here where I have to stay for a while, maybe some day, but I can't wrap my mind around living any kind of happy life without you. "You" were my life, there is no substitute, but I will maintain, I will watch our grandchild grow, I will be here for him as long as our Lord sees fit but I know the best day of my life will be when this one is over and i get to be there with you forever. Once more I'm going to my bed now and like every night since you've been gone I will lie there and relive every moment of our years together and I will pray that I see you in my dreams, sometimes God grants that prayer, and every time he does I count that day as one of the few good ones.

  • Give me strength

    Posted in Father

    I can't breathe... it hurts so much that your gone. It's not fair! Why you? Why now? I wish I could wake up from this nightmare. Please give strength, I love you.

  • How could you be so cruel?

    Posted in Father

    I hope that wherever you are, you are happy & satisfied with what you did. I never wanted anything from you, but you didn't have to be so cruel, evil & spiteful. I just hope that you were hurt as much as you hurt me.

  • missing you

    Posted in Father

    We knew you were sick and were going to leave us. I thought I was prepared. I'm not! Daddy I miss you, I feel completely broken and all alone even though there are so many people supporting me... they aren't you. I want you! I want my Daddy! I know you told me that I needed to find my "new normal" with you gone.... nothing is normal. Nothing is right without you. I promise i'll be ok, you made me who I am. I'm missing you today so much it hurts.

  • Only with Nonno

    Posted in Grandfather

    I had all the family over today for lunch and we started to talk about how fussy I was as a baby. Nonna said that I wouldn’t go with anyone except Mom and you! I would cry and cry but I could stay in your arms for hours without a peep. Dad said that you used to take me for walks when we lived around the block from you and once we started walking I would get lazy and say “Nonno up” then I would spend the rest of the walk in your arms. No wonder I’m known to be a bit of a princess; you spoiled me! I guess even as a baby I knew what a caring, loving, and fun grandfather you’d be. I’m glad we had such a close bond and I will cherish it always.

  • One year

    Posted in Brother

    Its been a year, its been twelve months. If I could see you even once. So much to say, so much to share, how much we loved you, how much we cared. Its been a year, its been twelve months, If I could see you even once. We do not know or understand the ways of God or of this land, but still we trust it was His hand and not the foolish ways of man. Its been a year, its been twelve months, If I could see you even once. We learned our lesson, your death's not in vain, despite our sadness never to wane, and so we stand having one year of pain as life and family will never be the same. Its been a year, Its been twelve months, we will see you when redemption comes.

  • Just Like You

    Posted in Father

    This morning I made a big bowl of cereal, using your 'special technique'. One layer of cereal, one layer of sliced banana, another layer of cereal, another layer of sliced banana. I remember the first time you made me a bowl like that, and we ate it together. When I make it now, it puts a smile on my face!

  • Missing You

    Posted in Grandmother

    Grandma, I know that I told you last November that I would not be coming back to the cemetery, but I really felt drawn there yesterday. You know how much I love you & I was so hurt & appalled to see that your grave was such a mess. When you were alive, you always made sure that Granddaddy's grave was kept pristine. When you died, my mother & I made sure that your graves were always kept nice & clean & I made sure that there were always flowers there for you. Now that my mother & father are both gone, all of your graves are a mess. I am so sorry! I am not able to take care of everything right now (physically or emotionally) & don't know if I will ever be able to do it again. Your other granddaughter & her no good children should be taking care of things, but we know that will never happen. Just know that whether I am able to take care of things or not, I love you with all of my heart & miss you terribly.

  • Your first grandchild

    Posted in Sister

    As I sit in the hospital, where the wonderful daughter-in-law you never got to meet is giving birth to your first grandchild, I remember being with you when your son was born. I think you did well raising him on your own, when I see what a good husband and father he is. I remember when you came, when my son was born and I needed an ally. I remember the day you were born. I wish we were here together now, but I'm doing my best to stand in for you.

  • You have been gone for over a year now, and I still regret not saying goodbye. I regret not telling how much I love you, I thought I had more time. But I know I will see you some time, and I know you are still with me. There has been some events in the last year that I know you acted as my angel. Thank you. I love you Mom, and I miss you, but you are not far from my heart.

  • missing you so much

    Posted in Son

    So hard to believe. You were taken from us 2 and a 1/2 years ago. You were 19 with such a promising life ahead of you. The pain has been unbelievable. Seems like yesterday I talked with you. You understood me so well... your mom and I and your brother miss you terribly....

  • hero

    Posted in Friend

    My godfather passed away yesterday. He was an amazing man that touched the lives of many people in a most positive way. He loved his family very much. He was always with a smile . He took care of all his friends. He will be missed by his family and friends. He pushed himself till the end, we will help each other through this difficult time and we will cherish all the memories we have with him. His body is gone but his soul stays with us. He is now resting in peace he is watching down on us always. we miss you and we love you.

  • Memories on Wheels

    Posted in Father

    You were not my father. But growing up alongside your daughter, you were certainly a close second. Some of my fondest memories serve as a gentle reminder of your dedication, support, understanding and humour. And now I think of it, the backdrop of such memories was often a car. You were a devoted chauffeur to endless dance practices and shows. The family car turned taxi for a throng of sheepish underage drinkers. You indulged wild requests to drive recklessly as we bounced around the trunk. In reality, these were semi-sharp turns in a parking lot. Sports banter. Political debate. Spelling test practice. Respectful confidant. DJ. So many moments that were pivotal to our childhood and adolescence. And I am truly grateful. I am also truly grateful to have your daughter as a best friend. I see these same great qualities in her. As another anniversary approaches, time slowly dabs at the wound. Rest assured, she learned from the best. One day her young ones and their friends will enjoy sing-alongs, the odd exaggerated bump and knowing safety always resides within the family car.

  • ...and I still think of you every day. Ever since you died, lying there in bed with me at your side, I have missed you. I wish you could have seen the funeral we held, any one of the three actually! They were wonderful celebrations held in Ottawa, St. John's and finally at the light station. You wouldn't have believed the weather! it was spectacular for the service which we held outdoors. Susan came and ran the service and I asked Dave to speak in addition to myself. Bev and I spread some of your ashes in the ocean right where you had taken the photos the previous year. I miss you Meridith and am often lost without you. The Sunday dinner family have been so helpful and they miss you too. We haven't tried your cheesecake recipe again and likely won't! I miss you.

  • Grief vs Sadness

    Posted in Daughter

    Grief, such a little word but it has the power to suck our life from us. Sadness is totally different from grief, sadness you can cry and then it is over with. Grief is all consuming, crushing you with every breathe you take. On this journey I never ever wanted I have encountered both sadness and grief, I prefer to just miss my daughter and not accept she is gone, cause missing her is sadness, but her being gone forever is grief! I havent learned how to deal with grief yet so I choose the sadness until God gives me the strength to handle the grief. Maybe that is why there are different stages to grief, denial being number one, cause we aren't able to process a pain so profound and heart wrenching on our own.

  • Missing you !!!!

    Posted in Son

    14 months ago on August 22nd 2012, you gained your wings... Not a minute goes by that I don't miss you... My only child, my hero, my best friend, my life... Don't know how I manage to keep breathing each day, but I ask god to let it be my last... Momma misses and loves you very much baby boy... Peanut, forever 17...

  • Mom

    Posted in Mother

    Funny how you take for granted, your Mom will always be there. The thought of her not, never did occur . She was a kind and gentle soul and I can hope I can follow in her footsteps. I miss her so much, and it wasn't right that you left us. When all you wanted was relief from pain I never knew existed. A surgery that should have easily corrected your pain. What an impact you left on me Mom, I will do my best to fill in your shoes. I love you!

  • A Glimmer of You

    Posted in Father

    Several people have said that my 2 month old daughter looks like you. When I look at her little face, I see a glimmer of you. I have no doubt that she and her twin sister already know you, and we will see your best qualities in them as they grow older. I wish you were here to hold them and spoil them, like I know you would.

  • My Love Always

    Posted in Husband

    It still doesn't seem real, my heart aches that you are not here and our dreams of growing old together isn't going to happen. Not a minute goes by that you are not in my thoughts. I hope you are telling our beautiful granddaughter about her amazing Mom & Dad. This life isn't easy and I miss having you here to tell me everything will be ok. I love & miss you more than life itself.. Your loving wife... Until We Meet Again

  • I miss you

    Posted in Father

    It's been almost 12 years since you left and not a day goes by that I don't think about you. Sometimes it's so hard to get through the day without crying. People keep saying 'move on.' But I just can't. You were my best friend. I haven't had a dream about you in a couple of months and I go to sleep every night hoping I see you again. I don't think this will get any easier. I love you

  • Both Together Again.

    Posted in Son

    You and grandpa are together again. Now my pain is doubled. I love and miss you both so very much. Love always mom.

  • Beloved

    Posted in Daughter

    Your name means beloved...losing you was like losing a part of myself... Your sister and I miss you more than words can express...I know you're my guardian angel...I will always love you my beautiful girl...

  • I miss you

    Posted in Nephew

    I wish my life wouldn't have gotten so crazy and we could have been closer and I am sorry for that time we talked and you told your mom something I wished you wouldn't and she was mad at me and it caused problems .BUT I was wrong in saying what I did and I am sorry I was mad at you for awhile. I am so happy we got to spend time together at a wedding and I got pictures of you. I love you so much. You are missed so much. Your parents have had a rough time but getting better. Losing you at such a young age has taught us all to be closer. I called your mom all the time after you died, so I could be there for her. I have really tried to connect with all the family after you left us. Your sister just announced she was having a baby but today she miscarried. It is a sad day. I was so hoping for a boy for them and they could name him after you. I wish you could have experienced being a husband and a daddy but God needed you more.. I will never ever forget you!!

  • Cribbage Partner

    Posted in Grandfather

    I haven't played cribbage since you died. It was our game; something I will always associate with you. I think it's time to play again otherwise I might forget, which would be a shame since you so patiently taught me all of the rules when I was a little kid. I hope I get to play again with you one day!

  • Such a darling

    Posted in Husband

    It has been five years. And I still miss your smile, your caring, your encompassing, unconditional love. You have been to me the most beautiful person in the world and I thank God every day for allowing me to know you. I'm sure you continue to be such a darling in this other world which is not so far from ours than we sometimes think.

  • Yoga Vision

    Posted in Partner

    I lay prone today, breathing and bending in supreme relaxation on the mat. A vision overtook; it was of you. You were running, happy, and free through a forget-me-not covered mountain field. Long stems swayed around familiar knees as your movements defied time and space. Reaching out to me, you offered your hand, inviting my company. Without decision I was with you, panting, laughing, and uninhibited just as it was before you died. Class carried on, forgotten in consciousness's periphery while the boundaries between life and death, love and longing subsided, if not for always, then at least for a moment.

  • 2nd year is the hardest

    Posted in Husband

    Everybody says the first year is the hardest, but I disagree. I believe the first year your heart, soul,and body are on autopilot. To me reality, denial, anger, and maybe a little madness came in floods the second year of losing my husband, best friend, and soulmate of 16yrs. I've yet to see the beginning of the 3rd yr. Much love and patiently waiting till we see each other again.

  • I died too.

    Posted in Daughter

    The day you and lexi died, I did too. Time has stood silent and still the days go by but my day is the same as the first. Why did this happen? What price do I have to pay? The fact that I live with the loss of the both of you passing at the same time is more than I can bare. I miss you both so horribly. I wish I could just have had the time to tell you how much I loved you. I break every day silent tears I cry afraid to let anyone see the pain. I will carry you both in my heart and soul until the day I join you. I love you and miss you both my sweet angels. Mom and Nana.

  • Oh how I miss you my love

    Posted in Husband

    My loving husband died in my arms. And the last thing I see at night and the first thing I see in the morning is his last breath. I saw you at peace my love. I am sending you all my love and thank you for picking me for your wife. l miss you dearly.

  • The long road of Grief

    Posted in Husband

    I lost you, my best friend from septic shock after a colonoscopy 8 years ago. We had one grandaughter then, soon we will have 8 granddaughters. My faith has helped me get through, but I get so sad some days wishing you were here to help me and enjoy your grandchildren. We were married for 32 years, and I was looking forward to retirement with you and enjoying your company. When ever someone we know passes away I try to attend the funeral for support, because i know what they are going through.

  • Twenty Years

    Posted in Grandmother

    Today marks twenty years since you passed away. I never got to know you as well as I would have liked. What I do know about you, despite only having you in my life for eight years, is that you loved me unconditionally. Mom and I went for high tea today, and I couldn't help but think how wonderful it would have been to have you there too.

  • Love You Forever

    Posted in Father

    Dad...It's almost been a year and 4 months and you have not been forgotten. I think of you everyday, several times a day. I miss you so much. We all miss you so much. I like to think you are still near as I talk to you sometimes.....life just goes by so fast. I'm just glad you are at peace now after all your brave suffering. I know you are looking down on us and guiding us along. Love You! oxoxox

  • A Sign That You're Alright

    Posted in Father

    When you were in your final dayshours of life I kept telling you that it was OK to go, but to please find a way to let me know that you were alright once you'd passed. Four years later, I keep waiting for some sort of clear, evident sign. Maybe those times when I feel a hint of you around, or you pop into my mind for no reason, are signs from you. I'm trying to let myself just trust that you are at peace and will always be with me in some way.

  • My Precious Angel

    Posted in Daughter

    My Sweetest Angel. It has been only 2 weeks. And oh how I miss you every day, every minute every second. How I wish that I could have the chance to hold you one more time, kiss your tiny little hand once more, see you once more. To deal with the heartache every day of my life as your mommy, makes me realize that you are real to me, and therefore I will speak about you. You had a rightful place on earth even though it was for only 8 days. The most precious 8 days of my life! Rest in Peace my Sweetest Angel in Heaven. I miss you and love you with all my heart.

  • It's been so long...

    Posted in Sister

    It's been so long since you've been gone. Nearly 30 years now, but my grief and pain and guilt are no less than they were on the day you died. I miss your wisdom, and your humour, and your beauty, and I will forevermore. I've been traumatized and scarred by your death ever since I wasn't where I'd said I'd be, helping you move. I was having a hangover breakfast with friends at the Sylvia Hotel, at about noon...when I realized where I was supposed to be, 3 hours ago.... It wouldn't have changed anything, but I'm responsible for your suffering longer than you should have. Saying 'I am so very sorry' for the 20 millionth time to an ethereal spirit, never really helped me much, y'know? But I do, every time I think of you, and counting.

  • A new place

    Posted in Husband

    Today I went to a new place somewhere I hadn't been before with you. I remembered our many trips together. Bitter sweet memories. I felt you close as if it was ok with you. I was safe with a couple of friends of both of us. My love for you has not dimmed. I wish we could talk about the experience a new road trip without you by my side. I guess the lesson for me is that all the trips I take will be different now. I will store the memories until I can share them with you

  • Coming through the fog

    Posted in Husband

    The grey Saturday morning that you left with the rain falling softly on you as they took you from our home, on a stretcher. I did not know that you would never return and my heart breaks that you did not get a chance to say goodbye to your little cat, Sammy or our beautiful Brooklyn. This home is so full of you and every day you are thought of and missed. You used to tell me I would miss you when you were gone and you were right, my love. My heart is broken and I pray that you are in a better place. I'm grateful that you are no longer in pain but I miss you. I really miss the laughter and the smiles. Thank you for the memories that make me smile and the love you gave me. Your sweetie.

  • Disbelief.

    Posted in Father

    When you passed, I was relieved. No one wanted you to suffer. Every day I watched you sink further and further away from me. Your illness consumed my life as much as it did yours. When you left, we celebrated your life and I smiled. I stood by my fond memories, our shared behaviours and your unconditional love. But now, the flowers are gone, the stories have ended and everywhere I look I’m reminded of you. I’m not as stoic anymore. Ten days later, all I do is wish you were here again with me. I’ve never felt so conflicted. I guess I really wasn't ready to let go.

  • Where we Agreed to Meet

    Posted in Son

    SON - I miss you more every day. I hope you're still waiting where we agreed to meet.....see you soon.....love mom

  • Love you so much

    Posted in Son

    You are on my mind every second of every day, James. I miss you more than words can say.

  • I am sorry Mom.

    Posted in Mother

    That day the doctors said would be your last day, I could not believe I would never see you again. I went to the hospital and when I walked into your room you told me to go back home. Mama I could not leave you so I stayed. I told you I love you with tears streaming down my face. After I got there you told them you were ready and they put you on morphine and you went silent except for the beat of your heart on the machine. I was there throughout the night in and out of your room. The morning came and your heart beat got weak and your breathing shallower by the minute. I was in the room but I could not sit by your bed. I sat at the door with it cracked so I could hear the machine when it went quiet. They said you were gone. I said goodbye and came home. I just could not stay with you and you were no longer there. Mama I think about you everyday now and I will see you soon in Heaven. Until then I will look after Joe and Dad until we are all reunited again.

  • I dreamt of you the other night. You were with Dad and he was guiding you through to the next phase of your existence. You had been to the cottage one last time - something you didn't actually get to do. I hope you're there in spirit now, watching over everyone and puttering around as you always liked to do. We miss you.

  • I MISS YOU

    Posted in Husband

    I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH. It will be 5 years on July 4th when you left me so suddenly and totally unexpected! I'm still in shock as I wasn't there when you passed so I never got to hold you one last time! This was to be OUR time, kids all grown up and we were getting on our feet, we made so many plans and it hurts me so such we never got to do them!! I'm nothing without you my darling as part of me died with you too. Love you always and forever xx

  • The Lord needs you..

    Posted in Son

    I figured out why you're there and I'm here.. Its because you're better than me.. You always have been and always will be...God let me borrow you for a lil while and then he took you home because he knew I didn't deserve you... I learned alot about kindness, love and generosity from you..I always knew you were different from others and always knew you were a blessing but I never knew how much of a blessing you were..If i knew we were on borrowed time I never would have been so hard on you.. I blame myself for your passing although you can't change gods plan .. I blame myself.. I love you my baby and i wish we could exchange places but I know we could never because Im not a good person like you..loves and kisses mommy

  • Memories Everywhere

    Posted in Husband

    Missing you so Bob. The emptyness is so final. I'm trying to go on alone. Everywhere I look I see memories of you - your chair in the den, the car you never got to drive, your place at the table, our bed so alone, 58 years. The cementery is such a cold place. Will you meet me on the other side?

  • There is not a day, night or dream that goes by that i don't think of you. You're in my every thought throughout my existence each day. Everyday is hard to cope with, without you in it knowing that i will never see your face, hold you tight or just have you here in my life ever again son. The pain is so unbearable at times and I wish I was with you instead of here. Nobody has a clue about what I'm going through and I don't have the strength left in me to try and help them understand anymore. I just wish they would try to help me through this pain…I need someone...and I can't have you...that's the hard part son xxx

  • Why?

    Posted in Father

    Why did you have to say those terrible things to me before you died? I knew you were upset but I didn't think that you hated me so much. I hope that somehow you now know that you were wrong about me.

  • We Loved You

    Posted in Cousin

    I wrote you an email while you were in the hospital, when the news looked good. I never heard back from you—I wish I’d taken that chance to write you a text as well. We thought you’d finish recovering at home, but you died the night after you were discharged. Life has been cruel to your family—you lost your little brother, then your parents, and now your sister has lost you, too. Our whole big family loved you, although I know you often felt you were on the outside looking in. I wish we’d done more to change that, and show you that our family could be a safe place for you. Growing up I thought you were so brave—climbing mountains and fighting forest fires. You made me laugh, and I admired you. I hope you’re with your Mum, your Dad, and David, peaceful and safe again.

  • Weekly, LONG, Phone Calls

    Posted in Mother

    Oh Mom, I am sitting here on this beautiful summer day and thinking of how to help a friend who just lost his mother. No one knows the pain of losing Mom until one goes through it. The biggest part of my heart misses the weekly LONG phone calls about anything, everything and nothing in particular. I find myself reaching for the phone to call you. Your phone number is still on my cell phone and it's been four years. I don't know if I can ever hit "delete" because it will be acknowledging that you are gone forever. My heart isn't ready for that act. I love you and miss you every day. Please watch over me and let me know from time to time that you (and Nikki, your beloved Dachsund) are with me.

  • Walk Slowly

    Posted in Husband

    I hope you knew how much I loved you, and will til I take my last breath. You know I told you if you went before I, to walk slowly so I could catch up with you. Love you more.

  • Loving Heart Beautiful Soul

    Posted in Husband

    You are so in trouble! You told me you would never leave me and you did. Shame on you. When I see you in heaven you will be getting a peace of my mind.... right after I tell you how much I miss you and love you. It took me so long to find you and then I only had those 10 short years. You were absolutely my soul mate. You were so very perfect for me in every way. You had such a loving heart and such a beautiful soul. No one ever could come close. The other night I cried when I went to bed because I missed how when I came home from work and tried to crawl in bed careful not to wake you, you would silently reach over giving me the sign language sign for love and I would touch your hand back with the same sign. It was our way of saying "I love you" and it was a wonderful and peaceful way to end my day. I love you!

  • I didn't know

    Posted in Friend

    I am sorry I lied to you. I am sorry I didn’t know that you would leave this world and everything would become what you didn’t want. I was certain that everything would turn out well for you because good always prevails and you were good – I told you that and I was wrong. Now, I carry guilt with me and I will probably carry it for the rest of my life. I tried to make it better with my next friend who was going thru problems similar to yours. That blew up in my face because she was not good and she ended up using me and hurting me. I know that you would forgive me because you are a good person like that but I cannot forgive myself. I am sorry I lied to you.

  • Blessings

    Posted in Son

    Dear Orion, You only ever knew the warmth and love of my womb on this earth. I can see my body as a sacred space because of you. You let your sister enjoy the post-birth bliss that should have been yours. You saved our marriage. What enormous blessings in such a tiny life! As we try to add to our family again, I ask for your blessing, because my womb will always be my most favorite place because of you. It is yours, in a way. All my love, Mommy

  • Missing You

    Posted in Son

    Well its been 5 months since you left me and im still trying to find out how to do it. My heart is broken in million of pieces. I'm trying to learn how to live without you here but I know I will be with you again. I know God is taking care of you till mommy comes. I love you so much. I wish I would have told you that morning. But you know. I will stop back tomorrow to write you, leave me a sign today that you got this. Love you babe

  • Not a day goes by

    Posted in Husband

    that the kids and I don't think of you. You would be 55 today.....an old man! Ready to retire! It's hard to believe that 16 years ago I bought you your Harley <3 and that a year later you died on our new one. I know your parents miss you but not near as much as I do. And the kids. They've turned out OK for the most part. But it's been a long hard road for all of us. Not a day goes by that I think how all our lives would be different if you were still here. I love and miss you every day Richard. I can't wait until the day we are back together again forever.

  • Coming to terms

    Posted in Mother

    Each and every day brings new things to grieve over as I remember the childhood mother who is gone. I am so very thankful for all that you did for me. I wish that I could have done more for you. I am glad that you are now at peace, your inner demons silenced at last. I love you mom.

  • Huey

    Posted in Brother

    Hey Huey, its been almost four years since you left me but it sure doesnt seem that long.. i still miss you just as much. Wish you were still on this earth with me. I am so lonely without you. No one will ever know me or understand me like you. I just hope you are ok and pray that I will see you again..please let me know somehow that you're ok.... I love you...

  • A week ago I was sitting with you at the hospice and today at the funeral parlour. I'm sorry it took your illness to make me take time to visit, but I'm glad we had that time. I know you'll be watching over the family, because you just earned your wings!!! Those new twins along with your grand children will keep you busy. Please give hugs from me to all our loved ones who were waiting for you with open arms. Sending a rose, love you!

  • Barry, why did this happen, why did I agree to the procedure, why didn't I insist they wait for your doctors. The cancer was gone, it was just pneumonia and then you would have your life back and we would have our life back. Why did God allow this to happen after you fought so hard and did everything you were told for an entire year? Why were you allowed to endure so much pain and absolute torture? Nobody will ever convince me this was the plan all along. I need you so much, I don't know how I can be expected to do this without you. How am I to raise our daughter alone. I just want to hold your hand, I want to hear you say my name, I need to talk to you so badly, I'm falling apart. Yesterday was week 25 but it has been an eternity. I love you so much and I just can't understand why this has happened. You always told me through God all things were possible so please ask to be allowed to come back to me. I love you always.

  • Bruce, I miss you so much. This Saturday we are having your Celebration of Life in the Twin Cities. Family members from both sides will be there. We'll even have a priest. I know, you weren't that religious, but it could be worse. A Democrat could lead it. Hahaha! By the way, Andy got married yesterday, on the tenth anniversary of your mom's death. I know you would be so proud of her.

  • Forever in my heart

    Posted in Brother

    Dear brother, I thought I could be strong and go on, but as days go by I find it even impossible to breath. I keep thinking about you and missing you so much it even hurts. I got engaged two months ago. To the guy you liked :) I keep telling myself that you would have wanted me to be happy, but it is hard knowing and realizing that you won't be by my side on THAT day. How will I get through that day, God help me! Love you brother forever and ever and beyond time.

  • Why did you have to leave me

    Posted in Mother

    Why did you have to leave me so soon, when I still need you. I am hurting inside all the time. I try so hard to hear your voice but there is silences in the air. I call for you at night wanting you to come visit me, but you do not come. When I am having a bad day or having problems, you were always there to comfort me. Now there is no one. I have tried so hard to be with you but do not understand why I can't. Why did you have to leave me so soon. God didn't need you right now, I do. Everyone tells me that you are still in my heart and I try to believe them. I just want you here on earth were I can see you, touch you and kiss you goodbye. Every time I see a butterfly or a cardinal I think of you. Every time I see a rose I think of you. Why do you have to leave me so soon!!!

  • To my dear son

    Posted in Son

    Frankie I just wanted to tell you how much i miss you. I would do anything to have you back. Gets to the stage now I cant sleep for thinking of you all the time and how i found you on boxing day. Nothing is taking the pain away. I just wish you were here. Things are not the same anymore. I love you very much and I will never forget about you so sleep tight till we meet again from mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  • Thank You for Waiting

    Posted in Uncle

    Thank you for giving the tightest, most sincere hugs. Thank you for sending me inappropriate joke e-mails when I was 12, even though Dad told you to stop! Thank you for always having a witty comeback. And, most importantly, thank you for waiting until my daughters were born a few days ago before taking your last breath. You saw them here safely, and I know you will protect them as they grow up. I love you and miss you.

  • MY HEART, MY MOTHER

    Posted in Mother

    Moma it is going on seven years since I last saw you. I didn't get the chance to really say goodbye. I have so many regrets. I miss talking to you ten or more times a day. You were so much more than a mom to me. You were my best friend. I have picked up the phone so many times to call you and tell you something that had happened then I realize all over again that I can't call you. You were always so strong and these days I feel so weak. I'm trying to be a good mom but I will never be the mother you were. I have so much hurt in my heart that I don't know how to cope. I really wish I had just one more day to let you know just how much I loved you and how much I appreciated you. I'm sorry I was not there when you left this world but I did as pop asked and I know it was probably at your request. Just know I love you still with my whole heart and I miss you so so very much!

  • Last Memories~

    Posted in Aunt

    It's been 332 days since you left us. I remember the last day I seen you. You came to my house for a while. I knew something was wrong. I just wasn't sure what. I had seen your marks and scars for months.. That last day I hugged you tightly. Picked you up. You were light. It told me things. I was woken up and told I had to get up and go. Something had happened. It took a little while to find out what it was. I was more worried about your son than myself. He doesn't have any parents now. The day of the funeral, I had to go to a place I'd been before. The first time I had cried in months. Maybe a year. After that, we went to this other place to talk about it I guess. Then we went to the cemetery and buried you. I miss you..

  • Broken

    Posted in Uncle

    I feel broken because I know my dad will be joining you too soon. I don't want him to go, but I know you will take care of him and watch over him as he moves on. Please tell him every day how much I love him and hug him because I won't be able to.

  • Not A Day Goes By

    Posted in Husband

    It's been 20 months since you passed. Not a day goes by that you don't cross my mind. The little things that remind me of you. Even though I am starting to move forward, you are still so close to my heart. I still love you and miss you so very much. Your smile, those blue eyes, your voice. I wish you were here. But I know you are in a better place watching over us. Wishing you were here to see the birth of your first grandchild. And watching our youngest children becoming young adults.

  • It Happened, Mom.

    Posted in Mother

    Oh, Mom, I told you so. She wanted an inheritance. She really thought at 60 yrs of age and no help with your care, she would get money..Now we are totally cut off. Defriended, blocked, cursed out. I am done with her alcoholic mess. I'm sorry, Mom.

  • Do you ever think of me?

    Posted in Niece

    Do you ever think of me like I think of you? Do you miss me? Are you safe? I have loved you since the moment you were born, and will love you until my last breath, but did you know? Did you know how much I love you?

  • It's almost a year

    Posted in Brother

    Dear sweet baby brother ...I miss u every second of every minute of every day...I am here almost a year later but yet still stuck with that knock on my door that changed my life forever ...I am thankful for the blessing of 37 years but resentful for you being taken from us...I will never understand the events of those days leading up to July 3rd 2013..I know you are enjoying heaven but I just wish for a few minutes on earth with you... I love you Pedro and forever you will live in my heart... Love your sister

  • Son by LOVE not by blood

    Posted in Son

    I was not blessed to give birth to you but I was so blessed to have you in my life since you were 5 months old. I have loved you from the moment I saw you and I will forever love you as my son. I miss you more than words can explain I cry inside for you every second of everyday. You were brought into my life for a reason. I feel so cheated. You were taken way too soon! You had your whole life ahead of you and now all I have is pictures and memories. I see your signals just like the song coming on at the perfect time. Please visit me in my dreams let me know you're okay. Keep sending me signals and songs to let me know you're still close by. I will forever love and miss you my boy!!

  • Torn in half

    Posted in Daughter

    Caoimhe when I became pregnant I always called you my lifesaver. Only ever the two of us, you the beautiful, confident and outgoing side of us. Me I was the one always behind you letting you know you were so special. People don't get it that I have no one or nothing to continue for. I was told I spent to much time on you now I have to move on and find me. I don't want to pet I miss you too much, my love always xxxx

  • Notes for Father's Day

    Posted in Father

    Father's Day can be a particularly difficult time for those of us who have lost our Dad. Here are some notes written by Grief by Notes visitors to their father. If you're also missing your Dad today, please feel free to write to him. To all the Dads out there, Happy Father's Day!

  • I will let our memories surround me Dad, A thing someone may say, Will suddenly recapture a time, a place, a day, That will bring you back as clearly, As if you were still here, It will fill me with the feeling, That you are always near, If we keep these memories going Dad, We will never be apart, You will live on forever, Wrapped safely in my heart. I Love You & I Miss You More Than Words Can Say Dad xxx

  • Gone but never forgotten

    Posted in Father

    Hey dad i still cant believe you're gone. I've been on a roller coaster since we lost you. I was so happy when u n mom tied the knot 12/14/13 and then to lose you 12/16/13 has been difficult. We were at your bed side and watched you take your last breath. It has affected your holly alot but she stays strong. Can't believe she will be 18 on fri so watch over her please . I just want you to know we love and miss you so much. I know Fathers Day is going to be hard and so will july so just continue to watch us dad. I love you and wish u a happy fathers day up there .

  • And Then You Were Gone...

    Posted in Father

    I never knew a world without you. You were a steady presence in my life. I knew you were dying and, in the end, told you to go. Still, it didn't prepare me for you to really be gone. One day you were here and the next you were gone. The grief is less painful now but, for the rest of my life, I will miss you and the part of my identity which was tied to being your daughter.

  • Excluded From the Club

    Posted in Father

    Happy Father's Day. I wish I could give you a hug and the usual gift of a bottle of Dubonnet and dark chocolate. It's hard to walk past the Father's Day cards and signs, which are everywhere this time of year. I feel like I'm excluded from a club I never realized I was a part of. Even though you're no longer here, I will hold onto the memories and know that I was fortunate to call you my Dad.

  • Gone Too Soon

    Posted in Sister

    Today you would have been 68. The lily of the valley are out in my garden, always a reminder of you and your birthday. I have talked to several of your children this week. I know they are all thinking of you and remembering what a good mom you were. You would be pleased to see how they are choosing to live their lives. They are all good parents and are raising such amazing children. I love getting together with them. Soon I will be a grandma too. Your grandchildren are giving me valuable practise. I wish you were here to meet them. Be at peace.

  • Still Alive in Our Hearts

    Posted in Mother

    In spite of the fact that you passed away over twenty years ago, it seems as if you are still with us, and I could just reach out and talk to you. You always were a good listener and made people feel that they were important. Now I will soon become a grandmother, and I wish you would be here to see the twins. I think you already know them and what a blessing they will be to all of us. Your family is growing and grateful to you for all the support you gave us when you were alive. Miss you a lot.

  • Restaurant

    Posted in Father

    We went to one of your favourite restaurants last night and thought of you :)

  • Another Angel

    Posted in Aunt

    Lost another wonderful aunt over the weekend....My gentle, kind Aunt...you are in good company, Mom and my other Aunt and all those that have gone ahead will have greeted you. Another ANGEL...love you xo

  • Thank You

    Posted in Brother

    Thank you, little brother, for being you. Though you did not make it to be a teenager, you were still wise beyond your years. You taught me acceptance and patience for those with diverse abilities. You taught me how to learn and also how to teach. That is why I teach children today..because you helped me to see the importance of using a gift. You taught me how to lose and how to gain. To love and be loved. To laugh uncontrollably to the point where you have to rush to the bathroom over the simplest of things such as someone falling down or a car alarm. You taught me that no matter the past...a future is always clear and open. The night you died is no longer a painful memory..as now I see that it was the day you were released from your binds and were free to soar...keeping soaring little brother...and one day I shall join you in flight. Until we meet again...thank you.

  • Thank you. Miss you sister

    Posted in Sister

    Sister, thank you for all you did for me. Thank you for all you did for your own kids and your other siblings and our mother. I miss you, and I think of you every day. Holidays are the hardest. Thanks for all the good memories, glad we were able to spend times together. Hug and lots of love. Your sis

  • Time is Fast and Fleeting

    Posted in Father

    Time is moving so fast...I don't know what to do or who to talk with; I obsess too much about what is happening. Maybe God and the Holy Spirit will come to me as I write these words to help me along this path that everyone will walk at some time in their life.

  • Soul Sista

    Posted in Friend

    As far as I know your heart is still beating but you are already gone from this earth in any way that matters. I miss you so much already. I'm not sure how to start living without you in my life. I feel so angry - I want to lash out and yell that this isn't fair, that God is terrible, that the world makes no sense. And yet I sit quietly, knowing this is not your way. I want to live like you did- with love and forgiveness and whole-hearted laughter at life's simple pleasures.

  • Dad - my twin girls are almost here. Any week now! As I digest the fact that I will actually have two little ones to care for very shortly, I can only hope that I will be as loving and supportive a parent as you were. I wish you were here. You would be the best grandpa. You would tickle them with your beard and teach them all of the tidbits of knowledge and trivia you always had stored in your head. I hope I'll feel you around and recognize a glimmer of you in them.

  • Your Green Thumb

    Posted in Grandfather

    Mom is helping me to pick out and plant flowers and herbs in my garden this year. I'm sure her love of gardening comes from you. I remember as a little girl, I would get the special job of picking the strawberries and raspberries. The berries from your garden always tasted better than any others. You had the magic touch for making things grow strong and beautiful.

  • Gratitude

    Posted in Uncle

    We talked about you yesterday. How much you impressed us, with your always cheerful spirit and the acceptance you had towards others, no matter how different from you. We talked about the challenges in your life, and how you didn't let these get you down. Your usual answer, to the question - 'How are you'; 'not bad for an old guy', you'd reply. It's been almost a year. Wish we could take you to the Slots one more time and watch you win. Love you and miss you.

  • Simply Miss You

    Posted in Father

    From the moment you took your last breath on July 12 2013 my life has not been the same. I never have missed someone so much. I think about all the holidays and get togethers that we will have and your chair will be empty at the end of the table. The days have been long and the nights even longer. I visit your grave every day and talk to you about my life what is happening with everybody and just to let you know how very missed you are and how very loved you are today and forever will be. Miss YOU like crazy!!!!

  • Dear beloved Brian - I never thought of us being left alone, but it happened. I never thought about how it would be lonely, but it is. I never thought about how much I would grieve for you - but I have. When you fought the good fight with that awful opponent, cancer, I never thought you would die, but you have. I not only lost you, but half of me went also. I am nothing without you - just a shell of a person. We were all set, we retired, we had our pensions that would top up our savings, we were living the good life. We had about 8 good years and then the health problems began. myself and you. I got over my back surgery; you could not get over the cancer. Its funny, we knew how cancer runs in your family, but we never thought it would happen to you. You were too young to die. I am too young to be a widow. I miss you and long for you every night. Why did we get picked for this unrelenting sadness? I thought we were living the life that God wanted us to live. We must have done something wrong. Now we being punished. I can't stand to watch other people we know do things as a couple - the way we used to. I would rather stay home instead of thinking of you and how I miss you. I hope I don't live a long time without you and I wish that you're there to greet me when my turn comes. Then we can live eternity together, as we were meant be. That day I am going to jump for joy! Love and miss you.

  • You are my heart

    Posted in Wife

    I asked that Rod Stewart's 'You're in my heart' be played at your funeral. It is so very, very true. I miss you so dearly, and am so profoundly unhappy. I miss your smiles, I miss your lectures, I miss your frowns, I miss your laughs. I miss your humour, and I miss your insights. Most of all, I miss you. You were my soul. And, I have nobody to cook for anymore. You were so busy, and I had the time. I deeply and will always love you.

  • A Beautiful Mourning

    Posted in Father

    As we drove to the hospital, following the ambulance, no lights, no sirens, it was still impossible not to appreciate the beauty of a biting cold, majestic Saskatchewan morning. Trees covered in sparkling hoarfrost, fields blanketed in crisp, clean, white snow and a mist hanging in the air provided the perfect serenity that we deserved . There was no need to hurry. We knew you were gone. As we drove, the peacefulness of the morning, after the chaos of your death, was what we needed to make it through that moment, to prepare us to say goodbye to you forever. We wouldn't meet again on this Earth but the mystic morning filled our hearts with the knowledge that somewhere out there you too were reveling in the beauty of the prairies you so loved. Until then, memories will light the way to the perfect place when we will be together again.

  • Pears

    Posted in Mother

    Well, Mom, the pear trees in your yard have the best crop I've seen in years. Nick is busy canning the plums, freezing the apples, and getting ready to dry and can the pears. Grapes, not so good this year- maybe next year. We think of you every day, when I look at the fruits, I remember how you and Dad cared for the plants, trees, and of course, your family. Love you, miss you so much.

  • What now indeed

    Posted in Mother

    I am going through your things. Touching them, smelling them, remembering them. I am sitting in your place, seeing what you saw. Feeling the sun and wind, hearing the trees rustle. I am watering your garden and wearing your shoes. I have fallen into what I think must have been your quiet routine. I am going through your things. Deciding what parts of your life to keep, to give away. To throw out. Your dog is comforting me. His trust of me seems essential and i wonder why he thinks i am in charge. He looks at me as if to say What now? What now indeed. I could ask the same of him as I open your notebooks, feel your scarves, smell your sweaters. Going through your things.

  • Mom - it's been years since we lost you. The Alzheimer’s had begun to take you away from us for years before that. You were always there for us from the time we were born, to the time that we had our own families, to the time that you began to slip away from us.You guided us along through terrible times. You and dad sacrificed so much for us (and how you kept that from us for so long is incredible). You were so strong when you were in need of our help. We wish you were here so that you can see the results of your efforts. Love you mom...

  • Thank you

    Posted in Mother

    Hello Mom: I always have conflicting feelings when I think of you. It was difficult when you were in the residence. Difficult because you were very angry with me. The end was wrenching for both of us. On looking back over our many years together, I see the blessing you were. We clashed often - your values, my values - they seemed to be at 'sixes and sevens' all the time. But you showed me how to be welcoming, to be a good hostess, to be a nurturer, and to stick to what I believed. Often the lessons were opposites - me seeing in you that which would not work for me - yet, your strong adherence to your beliefs brought me to who I am today. It is still a struggle, but I can see the lessons I learned from our interactions. I am sorry that love wasn't easier between us. We did have some fun, but usually there was a crash and burn at the end. You taught me tolerance for myself and others. I continue to learn through the darkness and into the light of a greater wisdom. Be at peace. Rest in the love that runs through all things and all people. I miss you and love you.

  • My shining star xxxx

    Posted in Mother

    Mam I never knew life without you. I'm so lucky I know to be able to say that...cause we shared so much together, and had such a great bond. I was your only daughter, and you were my mam, sister, my friend. I had everything when I had you. Now I'm empty, worrying are you ok? Are you missing me as much as I'm missing you? I loved you then, and I love you now, my shining star my guiding light. Stay close to me always. xxx

  • What If?

    Posted in Father

    Why didn't you go to the doctor as soon as you started feeling unwell? Why did you wait until it was too late? I'll always wonder - what if?

  • role model

    Posted in Cousin

    It's been 9 months since you died. We miss you very much and we think of you always. You were an amazing brother, cousin, friend, uncle. You loved your family so much. I remember my childhood you would make me laugh and bring me Mr Big jumbo chocolate bars. When I got older you were really good to me. When I was feeling sad you would talk to me and put a smile on my face. I promise to take care of everyone. You are always watching down on us. Rest in peace and we will meet again one day.

  • RIP My Dear Friend...

    Posted in Friend

    I can’t believe you're gone, your beautiful and genuine smile will remain in my mind forever. Your honesty and sincerity were 2 of your greatest qualities. You were taken away from us too early and at such a young age. Rest in peace and watch over your two beautiful children. You will be greatly missed. xo

  • Missing you so much...

    Posted in Father

    Dad, 13 weeks ago you were still here with me... There's so much I wish I had told you. Did you know how loved you were, are? Did I manage to make it less scary for you? I really wish I could bring you back. Will never 'get over' loosing you and love you dearly always. As you told me, 'I do love you!' Always Dad, always xxx

  • MY sweet boy Casper

    Posted in Pet

    It has been a year and a half since i had to make the decision to say goodbye to you, it was such a difficult thing to do. But you were not having a good dog life, and i could not be selfish and keep you here with me. I think of you every day, and you are the last thing i see before i turn out the lights every night. A piece of my heart is missing,and i suspect you took it with you... We will meet again one day at rainbow bridge. Love and miss you till then. xo

  • How Are You?

    Posted in Father

    At work today someone said 'How are you?' Although this happens almost every day, for some reason today it made me think back to when you were sick. It seemed like everywhere I went someone would inevitably say 'Hi. How are you?' It's a standard greeting, and they were clearly trying to be polite. Regardless, I would not - actually I could not - respond. How could I say 'Fine' or 'Good' when I truly felt like my world was collapsing and I didn't know if I would make it through? Imagine if I'd said that? They would have thought I was nuts! Instead, I would say nothing. While I still have tough days, I'm glad that I no longer feel upset and angry when people say 'How are you?' For the most part, I can say 'OK' or 'Good' without feeling like it's a lie.

  • Teddy Bears

    Posted in Grandmother

    As a kid I loved when you used to take my bears and wrap them in a blanket - often times I would come home from school and there they would be...almost like they were just waiting for me to walk in the door! I always thought that was so much fun.

  • Spider Webs

    Posted in Husband

    How many times did you sweep the cobwebs away, and I did not realize it? They always seem to be there in the morning even after a thorough brushing the night before. The kitchen counter does not clean itself either. Now I understand how much effort you put into keeping it tidy. I wish I could give you a big hug to thank you.

  • Cooked With Love

    Posted in Aunt

    I wish I knew how to make your pancakes, but I don't have the recipe. They were always such a special treat, and something I associated with you. Even if I did have the recipe, though, I suspect that they wouldn't taste the same as when you made them. They would be missing your special touch.

  • Sturdy up your heart

    Posted in Mother

    I found an old home-made CD while preparing for a road trip and thought I would throw it in the car to see what was on it. A lot of songs from my university years that I had forgotten about. One in particular by The Beautiful Girls called La Mar. It's a song that has always made me emotional and I hadn't heard it since you've passed so it really did me in this time. It felt like you were talking to me through the lyrics 'Sturdy up, sturdy up your heart, for the road is long ahead; I'll be with you even though we're apart, but your road is yours to tread, and so it goes'

  • Voices

    Posted in Mother

    Mom, I miss your smile, your eyes that told your soul - the look you would give me with approval or disapproval, but most of all I miss hearing your voice and you calling my name.

  • Pure Potential

    Posted in Mother

    I am considering going back to school Mom. I would really love for you to weigh in on this. I can imagine what you would say: that you are proud of me no matter what, that you're happy if I'm happy. Still, I want to pour us tea and hear you say those things. Hear you remind me that I can do it. I am left with the magnet you gave me on my birthday a few years ago. It says 'You Are Pure Potential'. I remember the smile you gave me when I opened it and I remember the feeling that you believed in me. I have worked to build my confidence in many ways over the years but it always grew from that seed of belief you planted first. Thank you.

  • Just run

    Posted in Grandfather

    When I'm running, I always reach the point where I want to stop, where I want to quit. I was always good at running. I can run fast. I can run far. You taught me how to do that. You taught me how to run, you taught me how to breathe. When I want to quit, I think of you and your voice. I think of how you used to help me stretch, how you used to help me breathe. I don't quit because you never would have let me quit. When I think of you, I can run forever. When I'm running, I don't ever quit. I just run.

  • missing you so much

    Posted in Husband

    Its been a month since you passed. I still cry for you every day. You were my soul mate and my best friend. I will love you forever. Tell mom I said hello. I miss you so much my sweet honey. I will see you again some day. Please save my place. xxxxxooooo

  • Memories

    Posted in Father

    Can't believe its been 4 years since my dad has passed away, Not a day goes by that we don't think of him , I miss him very much. There so many things i wish i can do with him , go for a bike ride, cook , have conversations, I love my dad so much and miss him very much, although its been so long its feel just like it was yesterday. question does the pain ever go away? I pain does go away in time, we just keep all the good memories and cherish them forever, Dad gave me a great life he taught me so much and i am greatful for that and I am always going to keep that, dad is watching down with a smile, I can't see him but i can feel him in spirit, Dad you missed all the time and I think of you always day by day and its only good bye for a little bit longer we will meet again soon, with love always

  • Don't Leave Me Momma

    Posted in Mother

    Momma, How do I say all the things I want to say to you? When the nurse told me you had passed, I relived being 6 yrs old when you went in the hospital and I had to go home without you. I remember leaving the hospital with Daddy and looking up at the night sky and crying for you Momma. That is how I felt when you passed. I couldn't understand how you could leave me and I was having to go home without you again. Don't leave me Momma! But I know you are with me. You leave me signs that you are with me. The butterfly, the cardinal, the song "I Can Only Imagine". I know these are telling me you are with me. Have fun playing with Benny, I know you are at peace being with him and play with my Grandson Ty. Britni knows you are taking care of him. I know you are proud of the Breann and Britni. They love you and talk about you all the time. You live on in them. And their babies are precious, but you have Ty, so you know how sweet they are. Please give Benny and Ty a giant hug from me. Until I join you....know I am missing you. Tell God and Jesus I am on my way! Love you Momma.

  • my soul sister..

    Posted in Friend

    Every day, I miss you.. My heart aches with longing to talk to you.. You were my soul friend, my soul sister.. There are so many times when you are still the only person I feel like talking too and you are gone.. It has been years now and for a while I let your death suck me down into a dark hopeless faithless place. Now, I try to push forward.. because I know that you would have wanted me to LIVE.. to LOVE.. with courage and honesty.. And all I can do is know that you are in me and you are walking beside me through all of it..

  • I Miss You

    Posted in Husband

    Hey Honey B I miss you so much you been gone for 1 year and 10 months and it feels like it was yesterday I was sitting with you. I still feel like I can't breathe it has been so hard since you went away and I know you miss me too. I wish Heaven had Skype cause I would be on it all day with you. You know I love you more than a fat kid love cake. and I will never love anyone like I loved you, and you honey B are my soulmate and I hope you come get me when its my time. always and forever I love you

  • I miss you

    Posted in Partner

    Its been two weeks since you left us. The pain I feel is only comforted by the fact that you loved me unconditionally. I wasn't always the best husband, but I always loved you and you knew that. I took you for granted so many times. I always thought that we would have more time. More time together, more time to chase our dreams and build our future. I will love you for the rest of my life, there will never be anyone who changed my life as much as you. My only regret is that I was not with you when you left this world. Thank you for loving me and giving my life meaning for the last 18 years. I love you.

  • Six Years--Already?

    Posted in Father

    How can it be six years since you were taken from us on Easter Sunday in 2008? Today I think of our conversations about curling, gardening, your grandchildren, your connections with our relatives in Saskatchewan. There is always something to remind me of you. That is good, because the memories keep you alive. But sometimes it is hard not to be able to actually talk to you. You were in my life for so long. We all miss you in our own way. You would be pleased that we are welcoming new life into the family and receiving joy from their presence. Soon I will become a grandmother of twin girls. We are all excited about that. They will be a source of joy to us. The old gives way to the new, and we carry on and miss those who have gone on before us.

  • What Could Have Been

    Posted in Brother

    Benny, I have spent my whole life missing you. When I was a little girl, I would pretend that you were there with me. I have always wondered "what could have been" because it was such a lonely childhood without you. People would always ask me if I was an only child, but I would say that I grew up an only child because my brother was in Heaven. Mama and Daddy never got over your death. They tried hard to shower me with love, but you were missing. And for some reason, I never measured up to Daddy's expectations. I think he always wanted a son, and of course, I was just a daughter. It has been hard between Dad and I since Mama passed. She was the glue that held everything together. But I am glad that you and Mama are together and also with my grandson Ty. I got to have Mama for 50 years and now it is your turn to be loved by Mama. Some day I will be there to hug you so tight that I may never let go. I have always missed . Love you Benny.

  • missing you

    Posted in Grandson

    I miss you James. love you so much, always will.

  • I Miss You So Much!

    Posted in Husband

    I miss you so much. It'll be 1 yr. April 18th that you left me & your 2 very young boys. We had a long life ahead of us. Why did you have to have to leave us at the age of 44? I cry all the time over you & miss everything about you. I'll never be the same without you. I'm going to try to raise our 2 boys the way you would want me to. You had the biggest, kindest heart & everything I could've ever asked for. Miss & love you forever!

  • Watch Over Your Brother

    Posted in Father

    We just found out that your brother is battling cancer. It was a worry in the back of my mind when he wasn't feeling well and I hoped it would be something, anything but this. I wish there was something I could do. This is all too reminiscent of when you were sick. Dad - please watch over my brave, kind, loving Uncle. Give him strength, give us all strength, to get through this. I pray for his pain to subside and for many more months ahead to enjoy quality time with his family.

  • Go Dallas

    Posted in Father

    I bought a cake for the Super Bowl party. I had them write Go Dallas! Just like you always did.

  • Late night winter walk

    Posted in Mother

    Snow fallen on a cheek, Like the murmur of a creek In a backyard filled with peony, Apple tree, And the little bird who told me That "All things must pass." Each pass of the glass Sees days become hours, become minutes, Until we are counting minutes In the room where time goes backward - Where there are no words, But s-i-l-e-n-c-e spells relief And sobs of grief Are muted By purple petal and green leaf. A flower in bloom, And in womb: A sweet pea - The bluest eyes you never will see... Unless by reflection though a snowflake.

  • Forgetting You

    Posted in Father

    I'm afraid that I'm forgetting you.

  • Questions

    Posted in Grandmother

    What did you like to do when you were my age? Did you have any other boyfriends before Papa? What was Mom like as a teenager? Can you teach me how to knit, like you used to? There are so many things I'd like to ask you. I wish I'd known you as an adult, not just as a child. I think we would have been great friends.

  • My Beloved Daughter

    Posted in Daughter

    It has been almost 4 months since you died in your 25th year, I cry daily and the dogs comfort me. You were so beautiful and kind, I cannot understand why you were taken so soon. I am broken, and feel I will never mend. I worry if You have found your way to the other side and are at peace. So many unanswered questions, but this I know for sure- The greatest gift in my life was you!

  • Missing you

    Posted in Friend

    I tell people 'our family friend died' and immediately I see them internally sigh with relief that they don't REALLY have to comfort me, that I'm not REALLY in pain, that I'm fine because it wasn't a parent or sibling who died. But I'm not fine. Your passing is so unbelievable and I miss you every day. I can't believe you won't be at my wedding, can't believe you won't be there to give me one of your amazing hugs on that special day.

  • Gardens

    Posted in Grandfather

    The small garden that your great grandchildren planted is continuing to grow. Watching my girl tend to it made me smile thinking of the wonderful hours we spent tending to the garden at the cottage.

  • Peonies

    Posted in Grandmother

    Grandma, you probably know how much I love peonies, although I don't remember talking about them when you were alive. Whenever I take in their fragrance I am reminded of you. I know you had them in your yard, and I must have visited you often in June because I think of the Rhein yard every time I smell them. I have been going through old photo albums to share at the reunion. There I came across several photos of me as a baby sitting beside a peony bush with you. How strong are those early memories! We will all be thinking of you and Grandpa next weekend. I was so blessed to have you as my grandma who made me feel so loved and appreciated.

  • Waiting for Your Visit

    Posted in Aunt

    I used to spend weeks looking forward to your visits to Canada. You would take me on fun excursions, patiently listen to my stories, and participate in all of the ridiculous make believe games I invented. It was always hard when it was time for you to leave. Since you've passed away, it's been easier to think that you've just gone back home, and will soon be coming for your next visit. Thanks for making our time together so special!

  • A picture is worth a thousand words!

    Posted in Grandfather

    Recently Nonna's brother passed away and at his wake, a few of us were admiring the slideshow. Most of the pictures were recent and then an older picture popped up and in it, there you were! At that moment I smiled and said 'It’s Nonno!' It made me happy to see you but sad at the same time. I realized that more and more we are going to see you less in pictures. I couldn’t remember the last time I had seen your face, so it was exhilarating to see you again, even if it was just in a picture. I miss you Nonno!!!

  • Surprise!

    Posted in Grandmother

    A few years ago Dad told me a great story about you. Apparently when they were teenagers you found some 'adult' magazines hidden under your son (my uncle)'s bed. Instead of saying anything you patiently, painstakingly cut out the chest of every single woman in the magazines and then put them back under the bed. The next time he went to look at one, he found a nice surprise and your very clear message - your mother is on to you! I so admire your patience and creative parenting! Well played Nanny!

  • Year number two

    Posted in Mother

    We started year number two without you. A cloud hangs over me on New Years now, and with each one that passes you drift a little further away. I am deeply grateful for the closeness to you that I feel but it is no substitute for the physical. Some days only a hug from Mom will do.

  • Pregnant!!

    Posted in Father

    Dad - I'm pregnant!! I so wish you were here to become a grandpa. I know that you'll watch over me and ensure that I have a healthy pregnancy and babies (that's right - there are two). If I can be even close to as wonderful a parent as you were, my children will be lucky.

  • Culture and Family

    Posted in Grandmother

    I'm just as proud of you Nonna, as I am of my brave grandfather. You also didn't speak a word of English...but off to the market you went to buy chickens (live ones!) You kept our Italian culture alive...the music, the customs, the food, (oh..the food!). I only wish my children could have experienced this first hand. Thank you for the teaching me the importance of la cultura and la famiglia!

  • Thank you for the hug

    Posted in Grandfather

    Today, I was sitting outside in the beautiful sun watching my children play and suddenly got very hot for no reason. I thought of you and our last visit together. I remember you saying you were hot eventhough you're always cold. We had such a lovely visit but I wish I would have hugged you longer. I wish I knew that was the last moment we would spend together. Thank you for the hug today I know it was from you.

  • the first last birthday

    Posted in Mother

    Happy birthday Mom, today you would have been 63. Seems way too young not to be celebrating with you in person. It was this time last year I first realized that we were likely embarking on a great many 'lasts'. The bigger celebrations like your last birthday party, the last olympics you would ever see, and the last thanksgiving. Also, the smaller things, the last meal you ate, the last time you went outside and the last time you said 'I love you. This year we are faced with all the 'firsts'. The first Christmas without you, the first mother's day and today your birthday. Happy Birthday Mom, love you and miss you always. Xo

  • Two Years

    Posted in Brother

    I can't believe how fast two years goes by. There have been so many things I wish you could have been here for and so many moments where I would have given anything to hear your unique insight mixed with your humour. You are on the front of my mind every day. I love you and miss you so much.

  • Letting Go

    Posted in Friend

    I attended a burial ceremony last week for my husband's elderly great aunt. I didn't know her well, but could not stop crying at the service. The warm spring wind and field of flowers reminded me so much of that June day two years ago when I helped to carry your body to its final resting place. You were 24- far too young. And while the tears of this elderly woman's family were every bit as real as the tears that I, along with your family and friends, cried on that day and since, I couldn't help but feel that your death was somehow less fair. I hope that I'll continue to let go of the anger I feel at you being taken from this world too early. Please help me let go.

  • miss you dad

    Posted in Father

    Hi Dad, you have missed so much during the last ten years. Events and celebrations that just weren't the same without you. I still miss you every day,even after all this time. xo

  • Snow White Hair

    Posted in Grandmother

    Every time I see a woman with snow white hair, I stop and think of you. I look at her face and look for a resemblance to the sparkle in your eye or your warm smile. I think of you often and keep you near to my heart.

  • The Best Gift

    Posted in Grandfather

    How brave you were to come to a new country to start a new life with your family. You didn't even know the language....but you did it and I'm so proud of you. I wish I could have spent more time with you...I was 13 when you left us. I am so grateful and appreciative of the wonderful culture you brought with you from Italy. It was the best gift you could have ever given me.

  • Time

    Posted in Father

    It still feels impossible. You can't be gone. Time can't have ticked on. I don't want more time to pass - you keep getting further away. Sometimes it's hard to believe that life just goes on the way it does. I miss you.

  • O'Connor Picnic

    Posted in Cousin

    I'm sure you know that we celebrated another family picnic on Saturday, June 8. Our weather had been cold and wet for several days so we arranged for a permit for 2 tents, just in case it rained. We should have trusted in the 'LUCK OF THE IRISH' or the O'CONNOR INFLUENCE on the weather person. It didn't rain and a good time was had by all. When you were orchestrating this picnic, I had no idea how much organization was involved. Now that my son is trying to fill your 'big shoes' I have a greater appreciation of everything you did for us. I know you can give him suggestions if there was anything he missed, but I'm pretty sure you were pleased with his first effort. Believe me when I say, we miss you and really wish you were here still taking care of all of us. Thanks for letting us know that you're close by. Love and miss you.

  • *Rye & Ginger*

    Posted in Uncle

    It took me a while to work alone at the bar because I felt like you were still there. I thought you would walk in at any minute. I could hear you calling my name when everyone else was gone and it didn't scare me-- it hurt more than anything. Flashbacks of serving you that last drink will stay with me for the rest of my life. I want you to know that I'll never throw away my green apron.

  • Good memories

    Posted in Grandmother

    Today my daughter found an Easter egg left over from our hunt and instead of asking to eat it as most children would, she asked 'mommy where is that place that people live under the ground' 'The cemetary?' I said confused We then had a great talk remembering when we had visited you and the rest of our family that has passed at Easter. The snow covered almost everything so it was difficult to find everyone so she made an Easter egg hunt in the snow for everyone just in case the Easter bunny couldn't find you. The egg is now tucked away for our next visit where we will be sending you on another egg hunt. I'm missing you like crazy but know I am blessed to have had you in my life for so many years and am thankful that you are now my daughters guardian angel sitting on her shoulder.

  • Passing on Your Green Thumb

    Posted in Father

    Guess what? I started some seedlings this year. I was inspired by your great granddaughter who likes to do things with me, and I wanted to do something other than baking for a change. I told her mom that I wanted to keep Grandpa's gardening legacy alive. I wish you were here to discuss and share gardening ideas.

  • Coffee on the Patio

    Posted in Mother

    How nice it would be to sit out with you on your patio with coffee and a treat and enjoy the back yard. I also remember how we sat out on the front steps a long time ago and watched people go by. The delphiniums were gorgeous. I have not been able to grow any like that-nice and tall and sturdy.

  • To Light and Love

    Posted in Mother

    'Dear Mom - not a day goes by that I don't wonder what life would have been like with you in it. With each passing milestone, it reinforces how much I wish you were with me. Even with all the love in my life, it still can't fill the hole in my heart from your absence. I feel you with me everyday though and know that you have been looking out for me these past 25 years. You have been my ray of sunshine, my guardian angel through many tough times, I will always keep your spirit alive. I love you to pieces.'

  • Time of Year

    Posted in Father

    It's that time of year when we look forward to Christmas celebrations. We all miss our Christmas Eve with you, attending the candlelight service and then going to your place to enjoy the decorations and the food you prepared for us. Nothing has replaced that tradition. Those evenings will always be treasured by us. We miss you, Dad, Grandpa, Papa.

  • Reminded of You

    Posted in Grandfather

    Mom made your trail mix the other day. I haven't eaten it since you passed away. It reminded me of the many Christmas Eves spent at your place. At the end of the night you would always give everyone a big container full of your special trail mix. It's funny how certain things, a song, a smell, a specific food can illicit such strong memoriesfeelings. I think next year I'll try to make your trail mix myself and give it out just like you did!

  • Daffodils

    Posted in Grandfather

    Grandad, I remember you once wrote me a letter and included the words to a William Wordsworth's poem. I have since re-read those words many times and grew to treasure the daffodils they speak of. I planted daffodils in my garden and someday I will carry them in my wedding bouquet. They remind me of you, of England, of family roots.

  • 5 More Minutes....

    Posted in Mother

    I wish I had 5 more minutes with you. I would even take a quick phone call. Just one more hug. One more...anything with you.....

  • Holding Hands

    Posted in Father

    Dear Dad I was walking with my daughter, today, and holding hands. You would love her Dad, she is so sweet and innocent at 12 years old. In fact, you would love my boys, too, had you the opportunity to meet them.....they are, in so many ways, just like you. I walked with my daughter and squeezed her hand, you know, in that special way you did with me....two quick squeezes that let me know I was special, you were proud, you were thinking about me, that it was a special moment we were sharing and I was loved. It is so easy to do and I do it with all my kids; that and that little flicker of the fingers behind your back that let me know you wanted to hold my hand as I skipped up to grab your hand so happily. I do that too. It is such a little thing but is such a powerful memory and has such an impact. I see it with my children; the beaming smile that they are loved and sharing a moment. Thank you for that legacy, Dad. I hope it continues in generations to come. Two squeezes right back at you, Dad......I love you too.

  • Piano Duets

    Posted in Sister

    I have not found a replacement for you when it comes to playing piano duets. No one who could laugh with me the way you did when one of us made the inevitable mistake. Usually it was me.

  • The Heron

    Posted in Husband

    Tonight I forced myself to take a walk before I settled in for the evening after a very intense but exhilarating weekend. When I got to the falls, I checked the place where the heron usually hangs out. He was not there, so I decided to look at another place where he can be found less often. I saw a photographer focusing on something on the rocks below me. As I looked down, I was very surprised to see the heron. I have never seen him in that place. I knew it was a sign from you. Thanks.

  • Enjoying the Sunroom

    Posted in Husband

    I have been enjoying the sunroom once again. Looking out at the yard and garden reminds me of all the pleasure we had when you were alive. I miss the lights and how we waited for them to come on. I miss sharing that with you.

  • So Long, Not Goodbye

    Posted in Friend

    Words cannot express the way I felt that day I prayed to God and hoped He’d let you stay. As time has past I realize, it was your time to go. Although I have accepted it, my heart still aches with woe. I think of you often and it brings a smile to my face. Perhaps you were too special to stay with us in this place. I see you in my dreams and feel your presence near. I cherish all our memories and hold them very dear. I may not be able to see you but this is not the end. We will meet again one day, I’m so lucky you were my friend

  • Dear AP/Apple Pie

    Posted in Aunt

    Every day I think of you and miss you dearly. There are times that I want to pick up the phone and give you a call just to talk and share some stories. You said you'd miss my stories and I certainly miss yours. I miss your wisdom, your guidance, your love. But your love remains in my heart eternally. You were more than an Aunt to me. I remember the nurses asking me in the hospital and the hospice if you were my Mom and I said with enormous pride that you pretty much were. I treasure all the time we shared together. You always made me feel welcome in your home and so very loved. Of that there was never any doubt. Fleetwood Mac, Rod Stewart, Lady Antebellum and so many other artists and songs remind me of you. Yellow roses and purple heather and spring tulips make me think of you. I love you lots and miss you dearly. You are in my heart you're in my soul, you are my friend as I grow old(er). Love you always.

  • I Didn't Know

    Posted in Grandfather

    I didn't know you were going to go. I sat in the hospital room with you, reading my magazine. I was sure that you would be fine. You were always so healthy and I thought you would, somehow, live forever. When I left the hospital that day I didn't say goodbye thinking that it would be the last time. I would have held your hand longer. I would have told you I loved you many more times. I didn't know...

  • Can you Hear me Singing?

    Posted in Mother

    Mom - can you hear me singing? Belting out Janis Joplin at max volume the way we did together, the way I watched you do since I was so young. Do you hear me Mom? I'm singing to you.

  • I Hope You Saw it All

    Posted in Grandmother

    Grandma - I'm about to go to grad school! Just like I told you I would. I wish so much that I could tell you I am...So much is different now. I hope you saw it all. But I know you were there, because your ring came with me. I love you and I miss you every day. Say hello to Grandpa for me. Let's all go on the next adventure!

  • Dear Dad

    Posted in Father

    Well Saturday we hit the one year mark since you went to Heaven. It's been a hard year & so many things have changed, some for the good, some not. I so wish you were here to talk to, get advice from, hug, laugh with or just hold my hand & tell me it's going to be all right. Allie will be getting married next July & it's so hard for her to plan it & you not be there to dance with-she always counted on dancing with Grandpa at her wedding. I know you'll be there in spirit & we'll be dancing to Pennies from Heaven & thinking of you. I know you would be so proud of the woman she's become-from the first day I brought her home & introduced her to her grandpa till the day you passed you were her hero & best friend. We will always love you. xoxo your baby girl

  • I don't know why...

    Posted in Father

    There is a homeless man that stands on the corner in the mornings. I often see him on my way to work. Sometimes I give him money and he tells me "bless your heart". I don't know why - but something about him reminds me of you. I told some friends about how he reminds me of you. I think they thought that was strange. I think they don't understand how it feels to miss someone this much.

  • Thanks

    Posted in Sister

    I never thanked you for everything you did for me. When Frank died, you kept me going to exercise classes, shopping, to social functions etc. Despite the fact that you were extremely busy you always made time for me and my many phone calls. You continually listened to my fears and helped with great suggestions. I don't know how I would have managed without all your help. Thank you doesn't seem to be enough, but I want you to know I really appreciated you being in my life. I miss you terribly and am sending a big hug. Till we meet again - I love you. Your baby sister.

  • Helping Hands in the Garden

    Posted in Mother

    I thought of you today, gardening in my backyard, my hands black with dirt as I remember seeing yours so often this time of year. I still feel like a child and not a woman trying to fill your shoes in the garden but it's coming. And I know your hands are there with mine in the dirt, helping me learn how.

  • Anniversary of your death

    Posted in Husband

    It's amazing how you can forget what you did yesterday, but there are days in your life that play out in your head like they happened yesterday. I was at my husbands side 3 years ago when he took his last breath. It was the most difficult and heartbreaking thing I have ever done. But knowing he was at home and went quickly and in his own bed like he wanted does give me some comfort. I have made a life now without him and it is a good one. But on that day, as I laid my head on his still and silent chest for the last time, I gave to him a piece of my heart to have and hold til we meet again. R.I.P. Glen, I loved you then, I love you now, and I will love you always

  • My Angel

    Posted in Grandmother

    My nonna. What to say about you. You were a beautiful talented lady. You had a big heart and would always plan to have the family together. I remember all the family christmas parties. They would be great, seeing all the family. You were very good to me and I am grateful for that. You were a fighter when you got sick and you are my angel now. I miss you nonna so much.

  • First summer without you

    Posted in Father

    I've been alone at the cabin a lot. You are everywhere but not here. This was our time together and I am missing you so much. I need you here with me, I need my Dad. Mom is so strong, worried about her kids losing their Dad, she never shows her pain and it must be awful. I don't think life will ever be good again, I feel numb, scared of the next tragedy. I'm scared to not have you with us, I'm terrified of not having you here to look after me. I wish I could have shared our dogs with you, you would have loved these boys. I miss your smile, laugh, hug and your protection. I miss losing the person that just simply loved me, adored me and thought I was great. I love you Dad and miss you with all my heart.

  • Is It What You Thought?

    Posted in Grandfather

    Is Heaven what you thought it would be? You were a man of such strong faith. Does it live up to your expectations? What is it like? I wish you could tell me all about it, and assure me that you are happy and at peace.

  • Miss you Mom & Dad

    Posted in Parents

    Mom and Dad there is never a day that goes by that I do not think of you guys. I miss you guys so much. Everyday is a struggle but I do it to show the love that you gave me for 38 years. And I try my hardest to make you proud. I sometimes ask God why why why would you take them in such a horrible way and get mad. Some day I hope to get the answer. Love you miss you so much. Your Son

  • New House

    Posted in Father

    Dear Dad, It has been just over 4 months since you slipped away from us. It still hurts. I talk to you alot and hope that you hear me. I know that you would approve of the pretty home that I am about to own. It is scary making such a huge purchase without your guidance and approval. There is a special spot behind the garage where I will make an attempt to grow a small vegetable garden. That is one of the things that I miss most about you. I know that it will be bountiful because of the love you send from heaven above. Miss you. xoxo

  • Thinking of you today Joey

    Posted in Nephew

    I woke up today thinking about you again Joe...its only been a few weeks but you are still always on my mind. Your mom and dad and everyone are trying to carry on, but deep down the pain that you should be here too is still fresh...its still so hard to let you go. Thoughts of you creep in at the strangest places and times...I'm not really sure why you pop into my mind when you do, but I like to think you are with me in some way. The strange and funny things have stopped now, its like you are finally at peace, and have moved along to that better place. I love you Joe...be at peace and know you're crazy ole Aunt hears your laughter and thinks of you every single day.

  • Why

    Posted in Husband

    I am trying to keep going but it is so tough at times. I thought that after a year I could bear it. I am so grateful for the years we had together I just wish I could have them over again. I cannot tell others of my trials as they think I should be over you by now. I didn't realize the hidden things you did for me. I now know it was me that left the cupboard doors open not you! I ache for your voice and your touch on my arm. Why do I feel so alone?

  • I Have Two Brothers

    Posted in Brother

    When people ask if I have any siblings, I'm always caught not knowing what to say for a moment. Then I say, I have two brothers. But that doesn't seem enough, because then they ask and I have to say you're gone. Then they get the strangest look in their eye as if questioning my first answer. I will never be okay with your passing - you had so much more to accomplish and experience. I will always grieve for what you have lost. Love you big brother

  • Friends for Ever

    Posted in Friend

    It's hard to believe that it's almost been one year. You were taken from us much too early and it has been difficult to move on. I miss calling you on my way home from work to complain about my day. Yesterday I attended another service at the church and all I could see was your face. I hope you have found peace and connected with our friend's daughter. Make sure you party hard. Miss you lots, talk later.

  • It still doesn't seem real

    Posted in Sister

    It still doesn't seem real, after almost six months. I still can't believe that I have to go through the rest of my days here on earth without you in my life. I think back to your big trip a couple years ago and you were gone for three weeks, that was hard for me, not to talk to you for that long. You guys had the most incredible trip and I am so thankful for that, that you had that time together before you were diagnosed. But I still can't believe you aren't here. I miss you so much. More and more every single day. I know, without a doubt, that you are in heaven and I rejoice for you, but you just left way too soon and it all happened way too fast. Life goes on, yes it does, but life will never be the same. I love you and I miss you so much.

  • Cherish the Memories

    Posted in Cousin

    You met a beautiful girl and you were so proud that you had found such an amazing lady. She had made you strong about yourself and made you such a happy man. One day we were at a dinner/dance and I met her for the first time. I told you that I was very happy that you found such an amazing lady. Then you called and told me the good news that you had asked her to marry you and she said yes... I was so happy for the both of you. One week after you proposed, you were in an accident and tried to fight to get better, but God chose to take you away. We were so sad that you died. You had a plan to get married and enjoy life. From today forward we cherish all the good memories you left behind and we will remember you always.

  • MissingYou

    Posted in Friend

    This summer seems to be taking me to places and books which remind me of you. Walking along the riverbank and passing in front of your house wondering who lives there now. Do they know of the memories created there by you and the many people in your short life? Seeing your name on the wall of donors at the university. Reading a book about farming and remembering your roots. I didn't realize how much I would miss you. Thanks for being my friend and for keeping our friendship going even though distance separated us.

  • It's Tomato Time!

    Posted in Grandfather

    So we did the tomato sauce last weekend at your house. We made over 100 bottles, I think you would have been proud. Dad was teaching my husband all of the tricks you taught him. I think he's learning pretty well; slowly but surely we're turning him into an Italian. I even heard him say he liked the food in Italy better than in Greece but he might have just been saying that to make dad happy. I'm glad he's getting so into this stuff though. It makes me happy to know that we're keeping your traditions alive. Love you, Miss you!

  • Wealth of Knowledge

    Posted in Father

    Mom and I were just talking about current events (a rare occurrence, I know)! As we had questions about this or that, we both commented on how much we missed you. We could always count on you to have read up on every detail of what was going on in the world, and to patiently bring us up to speed. I miss being able to ask you things, about current events and everything else. Back then, it never occurred to me that one day you wouldn't be here to answer.

  • No one ever taught me

    Posted in Husband

    I went from living with my Mom to marriage and living with you. I never realized how much time we spent together and all the things we did over the years. You taught me a lot about life and how to repair stuff but honey the one thing you didn't teach me was how to live on my own without you. Every single day is painful and I miss sharing my ups and downs, failures and triumphs with you. Does it get any easier?

  • Shut Down

    Posted in Father

    Dear Pops, I had to fill in the form for your death certificate at the Registrar's Office 3 years ago and today I completed the form to close down your business. Feels kind of weird. You were that shop and the shop was you. Mom is finding it hard to make the separation. Look after her will you. She is stuck. Oh and the washing machine is still on 24 hours a day. You never know, she might find a new hobby now the shop is closing. Big Love, Your Baby x

  • Thank you

    Posted in Mother

    You have been everywhere the last few days mom. I keep looking up and the dove is EVERYWHERE and I do mean EVERYWHERE, you spent extra time yesterday....thank you mom ...love you and miss you always

  • Unconditional Friend

    Posted in Friend

    Hey Dave, We think of you often. We SEE you often, in strangers who look like you, and quietly we say 'Hi Dave!'

  • Pasta & Red Wine

    Posted in Father

    I am writing this from my hotel in Italy. You never got to travel to Europe and I have no doubt you would have LOVED it! The food and wine alone would have put such a smile on your face! So, every step I walk, every bite I take, every sip I have, every sight I see, I am taking it all in for you as well.

  • Special Family

    Posted in Grandparents

    2001 was a very hard year for me when I lost all 3 grandparents in the same year within months. I miss them all very much. Not a day goes by that i don't think of them. I remember one year when I went to visit my nonno in Italy and I was trying to teach him english. He tried so much and I was so proud. My nonna was a sweet heart in Italy and I only remember a few things about her. My nonno Rocco died in 2001 and it was very sad. I remember when I was small he would pick me up from school and buy me treats at the store. He was very sweet to me. I cherish all the memories I have. I miss all my grandparents. Tiamo tanto

  • I miss you

    Posted in Mother

    I miss you when things are bad because you could always make them better. I miss you when things are good because they would be sweeter with you here. And I miss you every day in-between because every day, even an ordinary day was better with you.

  • Always Prepared

    Posted in Father

    I happened to look in the door of your (now my) car this afternoon and found a pair of scissors. You know, the ones you insisted on always keeping in the car 'in the event that the car were submerged under water and the driver needed to cut off their seatbelt', as you would say! Always ready for every eventuality! It made me smile and remember what a thorough and thoughtful man you were. Hopefully I won't ever need to use those scissors though :)

  • He took her from city chains, abandoned gray gasping spaces. Gave her a tended meadow in the south lawn and the isles of pine in the north field, a bastion of tree and rock calling to her over again back when Days and nights were safe and good, childs play was all day song yielding to the rasp of an Orthopteran lullaby. When the shatter of rain on sheltered eaves was drowsy pleasure. Cold was joy and heaven'’s fire was glory even the wail of wind could be loved. Now she wants the scent of t-shirts dried on the line with traces of his body musk to invade the room but would settle For strains of Mack the Knife Only she can hear. The unexpected flicker of a lamp. Crack of sulphur that can pause a heart. A phantom touch to her shoulder or the static flow of his voice, even with a tone Betraying old discontent. The slice of light from a door ajar still soothes.

  • Home

    Posted in Grandfather

    I drove by your little blue house last week. We used to tease you for reminding everyone that you had built it with your own two hands and for never wanting to leave your home. As I drove past, it seemed so strange not turning into the driveway. The truth is, your little blue house always felt like home to me too.

  • Our New Home

    Posted in Father

    Today we bought our first house. It is such an exciting time for us - but I can't help but be sad that you won't get to come visit. You won't get to see the colours I pick for the walls or hear the horses squeal in the neighbours yard. I won't be able to ask you how to unclog the kitchen sink or how often I should water the lawn. It's another reminder of all the milestones you are missing. I wish you didn't have to miss them. I miss you.

  • Summer Memory

    Posted in Father

    I stopped by Mom's place yesterday to grab a lawnchair. As I was standing in the shed I was overcome with a memory of you, sitting out there barbecuing with a glass of red wine in your hand. I felt like you were right beside me. I could almost smell the barbecue.

  • Another Anniversary

    Posted in Husband

    Hi Hon, Another Canada Day has passed. Since we were married July 1, 1967 I'm constantly reminded which anniversary it is. 46 years - it's a lifetime. I was in my 20's and you your 30's. Our daughter remembered and phoned. Our son had forgotten, but I spent some time with him and his daughter and mentioned it. I wish you were here to enjoy her. She has your very sharp brain. I know you'd love spending time with her - challenging her brain with all kinds of trivia. Our daughter has given her a series of DVD's on nature that she's soaked up like a sponge. She'd be questioning you on nature. The two of you would be so good for each other. We tell her about you and of course she's seen your picture. We still miss you Hon even after 26 years. Love and hugs, XOXOXO

  • Reunion

    Posted in Grandparents

    Grandma and Grandpa, you would have been so pleased to see how much your children, grandchildren and great grandchildren enjoyed being together last weekend. I think we all truly appreciated the opportunity to get to know one another better and to share memories of you. There was a lot of reminiscing, laughter and reconnecting, with the desire to come together again and keep alive the goodwill and sense of belonging to a wonderful family.

  • Summer Day

    Posted in Mother

    God I miss you Mom. It's a beautiful summer day today and all I can think of is how we might spend it if you were here. You fixing my garden, getting the latest gossip on my friends, walking to the market, sitting out on the deck playing cards, maybe even a trip to Hogs Back for some ice cream. Maybe none of those things. Maybe just a hug and a kiss, maybe just a squeeze of your hand, maybe just to see your smile again. Instead I am sitting inside, with your picture, telling the photograph how much I love you.

  • special someone.

    Posted in Father

    My life changed back in march 2010 when my father died with Muscular Dystrophy . He battled with this for many years. It was very hard for him. but he stayed strong and took care of his family as best as possible .My father was the greatest man on earth. He was a father,husband,friend . he was special to everyone . its been 3 years since he has been gone. the pain goes away in time but the memorys don't ever go away. . Dad we miss you very much. You taught us how to enjoy life as much as possible . we want to make you proud, we know you are watching down on us. we love you and we miss you. everyone who has lost a parent. its not easy but we all go through it one day . they are always with you in your hearts forever. papà ci manchi e ti vogliamo bene ....

  • Binoculars

    Posted in Father

    Remember you used to bring a pair of binoculars to my dance competitions? You would use them to make sure you could keep track of me in group numbers. You looked like a bird watcher in the middle of an auditorium. I was mildly embarrassed at the time. Now I look back and think how sweet that was. Thanks for sitting through performance after performance. I hope you're still watching me with your binoculars.

  • Notes for Father's Day

    Posted in Father

    Hello GBN friends. In honour of Father's Day, this week's notes are written to fathers and grandfathers. May we remember all of the happy memories we shared with these wonderful men who were such an integral part of our lives. To all the dads and granddads out there, have a wonderful day full of love! -Sarah

  • Dear Dad...

    Posted in Father

    It took almost three years to get over the guilt I felt for not being there by your side when you took your last breath. I am sorry I was a thousand miles away, when you needed me most. When I got that dreaded, unexpected wake-up call saying you had passed away, I remember feeling like the world had collapsed around me...that single moment changed me and affected my life forever. But, in all the sadness and guilt, anger and denial, that I experienced over your death, I learned some beautiful lessons, thanks to you, Dad. I learned how to be stronger, to be braver, to be a more passionate and compassionate person. I am a better mother because of you. You will always be my hero. I will always miss you, but now after 3.5 years, I have finally been able to replace the tears with smiles at the countless cherished memories etched of you in my mind. Happy Father's Day, Dad...I will always love you.

  • Poppa

    Posted in Grandfather

    Today would have been your 89th birthday. I wonder what it would be like if you were still around. You would be so proud of all of us; how we have grown, and what we have all accomplished so far. I wish I had more time with you. I wish you were still here.

  • From Daddy's girl

    Posted in Father

    It's hard to believe that another father's day is almost here and I cannot share it with you. I think of us being able to spend the day in one of our favorite activities and I miss those days more than anything. I hope you are looking down on me, proud of everything I have accomplished. I love you dad!

  • Lucky Daughter

    Posted in Father

    Father's Day signs and ads are everywhere. I used to find myself feeling sad and, honestly, angry when I saw them. As the years have passed, I've begun to feel differently. I think I realized that, even though you are no longer alive, you will always be my Dad. I will always have a father. I won't buy you a gift or card, but I will think about you and fondly remember all of the wonderful memories we shared. Rather than feeling unlucky because I lost you far too soon, I know that I'm fortunate to have had such a compassionate, smart and loving man to call my father. Happy Father's Day, Dad!

  • Happy Fathers Day

    Posted in Father

    Dear Dad, With Fathers Day approaching this weekend I can't help but think of you every place I look. Paige told me about this site and I'm excited to see there are others who clearly miss someone the way I miss you. I feel less alone but the pain hasn't gotten much better. I was lucky to have you with me as long as I did. I think of your words of wisdom every day and I know you'd be proud of me. I love you and wish you a happy Father's Day, as your still guiding me from wherever you are. Xo

  • Holy Liftin'

    Posted in Grandfather

    Wishing you a happy 89th birthday and a happy (grand) father's day! I believe a whiskey sour is in order... I miss coming over next door to chat so this is a note to let you know that we are thinking of you and miss you very much. God bless.